Averse Love || Hayes Grier

Chapter 16

As soon as Hayes' voice reached my ears, I glared at Nash.

"What the hell Nash?" I said, the anger building up inside of me.

"You said he wasn't here." I scowled.

"Listen Shanley, you haven't even lived here for a week but you've made a hell of an impact. I don't know what you did, but Hayes is infatuated with just the thought of you. Fighting with you kills him, even if it was only this morning." Nash tried to explain.

"If he hates fighting, why does he always screw things up?"

Right as the words left my mouth, Hayes came walking down the stairs.

"I screw everything up? I screw everything up?!? I'm not the one with a fucking mental disorder!" Hayes yelled at me.

The second he said that, I knew it was no longer worth the effort.

I ran out of the Grier household, having no other place to go. The only spot I could think of was the lake.

Hurrying towards the shore, I slipped off my shoes. Wading my feet in the water, I tried to distract myself from the constant supply of tears leaving my eyes.

Everything was going wrong, but there was nothing I could do about it. I wasn't exactly the type of person to go for what I wanted, to change something I didn't like. My disorder provided too many setbacks and I wasn't too excited about the possible outcomes.

More than anything, I wanted a normal life. But Hayes was right, I had a mental disorder and that meant that I was constantly screwing things up.

Paranoia wasn't something I could cure. It was something I could overcome, and I had lost the only person willing to help. I really thought Hayes would be different, but he wasn't up for the challenge. No one was.

"Shanley?"

I turned around at the sound of my name. There stood Shawn, his eyes filled with sympathy. But I didn't want sympathy, I wanted Hayes.

The second that thought came to mind, I realized I needed more than help. Help means nothing coming from a stranger. You need that special connection with someone for their help to actually be effective. Hayes gave me that special connection.

I now knew what I wanted, I just didn't know how to get it. For a normal mind, that problem would take a couple hours maximum to solve. Not me. I needed to plan everything to the tiniest detail, making sure it was full proof. I couldn't take the risk of something going wrong.

"Sorry Shawn, I don't have time for this." I said, walking past him towards my house.

Maybe that was rude, maybe that was a bad choice. In that moment I didn't care. I had one goal on my mind and I was going to achieve it. I didn't care how long it took.

I sprinted across the yard, my shoes in hand. Entering the house, I ignored my family still sitting in the living room.

Opening my bedroom door, I walked towards the balcony hoping for a relaxing place to go through my thoughts. The sight shocked me, causing me to drop my Vans.

"I'm so sorry." Hayes stood up, pulling me into a tight hug.

Still unsure of what exactly was happening, I stood still contemplating my next move.

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Sorry it's so short!! To make up for it I'll be updating my new book, Photograph later tonight. It would mean a lot if you checked it out. Thanks for reading :)