My bad boy neighbor is good? (Incomplete)

Chapter 16: the storm

Lily's POV

There he was kneeling down next to the table and sucking something white up his nostrils using a white rolled up paper, I know he hears the click of the door because he shoots his head towards me and stares me dead cold in the eyes with his wide eyes yet careless features.

My eyebrows scrunch as tears begin to form in my eyes, I wasn't stupid I knew what he was doing but what hurt more was that there was no excuse, no hiding it, he just continued shamelessly.

Anger boiled inside of me and I stomped towards him watching him through my blurred vision. Before I knew what I was doing my hand rose and fell hard against his tight jaw, but I didn't regret it, not one bit.
I saw the bright red mark on his cheek and then I trailed my eyes to his cold dark pupils. He was now towering over me, fear struck me with a urge to run but I couldn't, I just couldn't I stood there like a deer caught in the headlights but more importantly I wouldn't leave, not now. Not when he needed me the most, if I left he would have continued and ruined himself.

It was the hardest thing, standing there knowing you should run but feeling like you deserve it at the same time. I wondered why he would ever do this but the answers were clear in my mind, but I refused to let them get to me. I'm not saying I wasn't scared. I was, especially when he threw me hard against the wall, I couldn't fight back, I tried to understand from his pov but nothing I could think of could define his behavior.

"Brandon, why... why are you d-doing this" I whispered in fear "what could have made you do something like this"

He laughed cruelly, I closed my eyes as I felt his hot breath hit my skin. "why, what do you mean why!! It feels great, like nothing can stop me, I have whatever I want now lil" he stopped laughing and looked me straight in the eyes. "and I want you to join me in this world, it's carefree lil, it's all you ever wanted i never understood why you would skip class and go to those wild parties but now I do!! you need to live a little lils"

"This isn't l-living Brandon, y-you are r-ruining your life" I said as confidently as I could at that moment

"What?! I thought you wanted to be a part of this world lil"

"Bran-"

"No! lil no! I don't need another person to tell me what to do!! I will do what I want!!"

"And so will you!" he added in a whisper, as if he was convincing himself

"You know what Lils, I have never had the guts to tell you how I feel until now! Until today!! You know how your parents always thought we would end up together, so did I! But you always rolled it off as a joke or teasing"he gripped my bare arm tightly against the wall "but guess what, I got over it!!!"

"W-what are y-you talki-in-ing about" I whispered loud enough for him to hear with my eyes shut tight pushing back the tears

"You know what's weird" he laughed bitterly and continued between them "life- no, no society breaks you down as not good enough, but when you change to become like the rest of them, everybody looks at you in disgust"

"Everybody Lils..." He said to himself, then turned his head back to look me in the eyes with hope in his eyes "bu-but not you right lil, you always supported me and this time won't be different, right?!!" He screamed the last part in anger "why aren't you answering me!!"

I opened my mouth with hope to say something, anything to calm him down, but no nothing came out of my mouth than a sob that I was suppressing. I didn't want to, no I wanted to tell him he's wrong but no, he was right and I understood every word he said, it was really cruel how they can break you down until you don't know who you are anymore, it's like your breathing but the same breaths are killing you slowly inside.