The Dark King and his Queen

T H I R T Y || Suck it up buttercup

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"Above all, guard your heart, from everything flows from it"

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Katherine's Pov

I'm tired.

That's it, I'm tired of all the things that happened and is going to happen. I don't want to give in to Joey but I can't keep living like this.

Everyday there's a new battle I need to fight, the demons are becoming harder and harder to kill. They've become so much stronger and I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to fight them alone.

You're not alone

I can't keep putting other peoples lives in danger like this, I get that they're doing it on their own free will but I don't want them too. If anything happens to them, it'll crush me and drive me into the deep dark hole.

I can't lose my sanity like that again. I refuse to become that cold, heartless and killer person. She was ruthless, she killed anything and anyone that stood in her way.

She showed no mercy, she enjoyed seeing other people in pain and crying for help. The way they would beg for death but I would laugh and torture them more until their body gives out, and they die.

"Katherine?" I hummed in response as I continued to stare out the window, watching the rain fall.

Something about the rain always calmed me down, it looked so beautiful as it fell from the sky.

"Are you hungry? I have grilled cheese here if you want." Amelia placed the sandwich on the night stand next to me.

I nodded my head and continued to stare out the window, life is.. well what is life?

That's the question on everyone's mind, what is life? What are we meant to do in this world? I mean we're all just born out of no where with no instructions on what to do and they expect us to somehow survive.

My life has been pretty much fucked up since I was taken away from my family, is this what they planned for me? Because if so, what kind of sick bastard plans this for a small kid?

What bullshit is this? Why was I the one that got this life? What made me deserve something as pathetic as this?

There's so many questions that needs answers yet there's nobody that can give them to me.

"Melia, do you know why I was taken?" I turned around and looked straight at her, she was taking out clothing for me.

"Mhm? What do you mean?" She placed the clothing down and tilted her head to the left.

"Why was I taken? What made them decide to take me? What did I do to deserve this life style?"

"Katherine-"

"I mean fuck! I was a kid Amelia! I didn't know shit, I couldn't even fucking walk straight without falling and they took me! They turned me into a fucking monster, I was trained to kill. What sick son of a bitch trains a nine-year-old to kill whoever and whatever stands in their way?" By this time I was screaming, hands in my hair and tears streaming down my face.

Amelia stood with her hands covering her mouth, her eyes were wide open and she was tearing up. The room door opened but I didn't pay attention to the people or person entering the room.

"He made me a fucking monster. I- I killed so many people and you'd think that I'd feel regret or guilt but I don't! I don't feel anything and that fucking scares me, why don't I feel anything? I tried to hard to just forget about that part of my life and to not think about what I've done but I can't! I see them everywhere, their faces. Sometimes I still hear the way they beg me to stop, I hear the way they scream as I torture them an- and I like it. In fact I fucking love it, I'm so afraid... What if I go back into that state? I can't go back there, the darkness was terrifying. I was alone, I'm scared to be alone again." My knees hit the ground, my hands were gripping onto my hair and I looked at the floor before I started sobbing.

I screamed, I couldn't take this anymore. I had to let out all my emotions before I move on, keeping them locked up for years wasn't good.

"Breathe Katherine, focus on me." He placed his index finger underneath my chin and lifted up my head.

His stormy grey eyes held no emotion as he stared at me, he didn't want anyone to see what's really behind the walls he puts up.

But I know.

I know he's just as damaged as I am, maybe even worse but he doesn't show it. He blocks out all his emotions, it's almost as if he switches off his humanity and that's quite frightening.

"I'm tired of being treated like a fucking kid Ashton, I'm so sick and tired of having these fucking break downs." I pushed him away and stood up, wiping away the tears that stained my cheeks.

They all watched as I stormed out the room and slammed the door shut. I walked towards the kitchen and started searching for something to eat.

"Being a baby really makes you hungry." I mumbled as I looked searched in the freezer for chicken nuggets.

Chicken nuggets are the best and I haven't had them in a while, I could use them right now.

After everything's that has happened and is going to happen, I need the strength and energy.

Right now, we- no, I need a plan to find Max and Joey. Their relationship confuses me, I don't quite understand why Max would be helping a sick bastard like that.

They could either be related or Joey might have something that Max needs.

Or someone

What could possibly be going through that kids head that he offered to help Joey?

But what really bugs me is the fact that Max sounded so relieved to know that I was okay. He acted as if he really missed and cared for me, he couldn't have been that great of an actor.

"Are you going to stand there and watch your food burn or are you going to smart and turn off thr microwave?" Ashton raised his eyebrow at me.

That's when I realized what he said, I screeched and quickly turned off the microwave, taking out my chicken nuggets and blowing them.

"You're okay my babies, you're okay," I whispered as I placed them onto the kitchen counter and opened a packet of BBQ sauce.

"Katherine, it's just chicken nuggets," He rolled his eyes as he poured himself some ice water.

"Don't disrespect the nuggets, they're more important than you." My eyes were narrowed as I picked up a chicken nugget, dipped it in sauce and stuffed it in my mouth.

He shot me a disgusted look as I chewed with my mouth open to annoy him.

"Come back to us when you're done eating those nuggets, I don't want you messing in my office." With that he walked away, I simply scoffed and continued eating.

I didn't want to go there anyway, he can suck my d-

"Katherine?" Matthew called my name, I looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

"We might be able to find the location of Joey's hideouts, well one of them. Amelia told me to you before I tell Ashton because she knows how important this is to you,"

"Once you get the location send them to me immediately, I'll check them out," I licked my lips before wiping them clean with a napkin.

"You're not planning to go alone are you?" He crossed his arms and turned his body towards me.

"If I have to, I'll go alone. Whoever wants to come with can, I have absolutely no problem as long as you stay out of my way." I got off the chair, placed my plate in the sink and walked towards the door.

"And Matthew, don't underestimate me. I could kill you in five seconds but I choose not to." Without waiting for his reply I exit the the room.

I'll be coming for you soon Joey and as promised before, I'll make you suffer.