dalex love

love and war #2

Alex p.o.v.

It was still night time and I'm trying to deal with it but I can't it scares me ever time I close my eyes
derek been trying to help me but it's not working he still don't know what happen I just couldn't open my mouth to say it
I can't eat I cant sleep I'm trying
"babe" "hmm" I say still in my thoughts "Im going out are you going to be ok sitting here" "no" I said quickly "oh well you wanna go with me then" "no" I said quietly "then were do you wanna go" he said really earatated
I looked up "I don't know" I said looking down "look lex" he walked over to me and continued "it's ok but I can't help you if you don't tell me and I know it's hard but I'm trying to be there for you but I can't it you don't let me" "you can go" I said laying on the bed putting the cover on me head letting the tears come down my face
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Derek p.o.v.
I'm trying so hard to help Alex but I can't
I can't leave her and the house alone and ya nigga hungry so I just went down stairs to cook

Knock knock star said coming in the house "where's Alex" "she's upstairs" "oh well how Is she" "horrible she wouldn't even let me leave the house and I still don't know what the fuck happen" "why" "didn't I just say I don't know but I was hungry and I told her I was going to puck up something to eat I asked her was she ok to sit here" I took the food off the stove "she said no, I asked her did she wanna come she said no I couldn't just leave her here so now I'm eating home made food" "I'm going to try and talk to her" star said walking away
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Alex p.o.v.

All I hear is police sirens and I I see flashing lights and then I hear "license and registration ma'am" it replayed over and over and over again "If I ever see you after dark again it won't be pretty have a nice night"

Alex.....
Alex.....
Alex...

I sat up quickly running to the bathroom closing the door "alex open the door" star said slowly "no go away" I said sitting on the floor with my head in my knees
"OK" she said walking away
Someone came back jiggling the door handle opening the door "see we had to do all that, you could just opened the door" She said sitting by me "look Alexandra I don't know what's going on" I looked at her and sighed "when I was on the way home I got stopped" "like by the police" she said shocked "yea he was just so mean and rough I couldn't take it" "wait I'm mean to you everyday you can take my comment" I sighed "I wasn't doing anything but feeling the baby because they were kicking-......and he-he put a gun to my head" I said crying hard as hell "wait what" she said yelling "why didn't you tell derek" "because i was scared and im still scared and I don't know if I can do it" "look it not my business to tell him but to let you know that man loves you and if you keep shutting him out you won't have no one to run to he wants the best for you and he's scared and you can tell he is" she said walking out
I know she's right I went down stairs I was met by Derek eyes I felt like little Barbie told him

He walked to me and we made full eye contact no looking away he closed his eyes, sighed, and walked away doing into the living room making me go completely silent with a frown on my face "did you tell him" I said really angry "you said you wasn't going to" "and you said its not my business to tell him" I said mocking her voice walking up stairs slamming the door laying on the bed
I'm not gone lie talking to her about it really helped it felt like I wasnt alone
"babe" derek said sitting on the bed "hmm" "look at me" I sat up not really wanting to talk about it anymore "look I'm sorry it wasn't my intentions on making you cry-... " "I'm not crying" he wipes my face "oh" "look I don't wanna hear it from star I wanna hear it from you tell me what happen" I explained to him what happen and he got really angry just pacing around the room "babe calm down" I said in a scared tone " WhY DiDnT YoU TeLl Me" "because" I said letting the ending fade away "Whyy" "because I didn't want you to over react" "OVER FUCKING REACT, YOU DIDNT WANT ME TO OVER REACT" I quickly nod in fear "HOW" "look how your acting now your yelling at me for no reason" he paused and looked at me so I got up slowly once I got fully off the bed ran to the bathroom but quickly failed "why you running" he said "i-i-i don't know" I said looking around "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you but I am a little up set" "I'm sorry" I said kissing him going back to the bed "did star leave" "yea she said she'll come check on us tomorrow" he said snuggling closer to me "can I be honest with you" "what type of question is that of course you can" "it felt good talking to you about it" "I love you" "I love you too baby"
I felt at peace knowing he had my back but I'm still a little scared to drive at night but I'm sure I'll get over I thought as I got ontop of him and drifted off to sleep
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I have no words 😟 I'm just speechless because it took me a while to right this crap and it wasn't even good but Imma come back