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It's been a week in Arizona.

Full of anxiety and anxiousness.

I hate it here.

And I wanna go home. Callie on the other hand, she loves it here. She doesn't wanna go back to Georgia. Or, I don't think. But, she's so happy.

And I love seeing her happy!

But at this point, I'm not happy. I'm doing it for her... even though it's not working for me.

"Hey bub!" Callie all of a sudden jumps on my back.

"Hey, love" I hold her.

"I'm off to head to work! Wanna get something out when I get home? For our first week here! And first week of living together! Just me and you! No distractions or loud noises, all the things you hate" she laughs and gets off me.

I hold back my frown and replace it with a smile.

Yeah, I thought I hated those things. But now that it's quiet, I hate that.

I hate being alone.

I hate being in silence everyday for ten hours.

"Yeah" I smile and kiss her forehead.

"You okay?" she asks.

I nod. "Yeah"

"I know you're not... whats wring?" she frowns and sits us down.

"I just... when are you gonna have an off day?" I ask.

"Next week. I'm sorry... I-"

"No no, I'm sorry. Go to work, we can go out when you get home" I peck her lips. "I love you, babe"

"I love you too..." she hesitates before leaving.

I throw my head back.

**

"I miss you" mamas says over facetime

"I miss you more" tears dwell up in my eyes.

She frowns. "I know you're not happy in Arizona, bubba"

"How can you tell?" I tilt my head.

"I know my son. I've raised you for almost twenty two years" she says and I frown. "What's wrong?"

"I miss you. I miss everyone. I've always had this complex of not being with my family. Mama... I feel so alone here. So alone. I have nobody. Cal is always, I mean, ALWAYS busy. She's never home, only at night" I look down and nervously play with my fingers. "I wanna come home"

"Aw baby... I-I'm so sorry. Please talk to her. Tell her how you feel" I practically see the heartbreak in her eyes.

"She loves it here. She doesn't wanna come home. She's so happy... and I don't wanna take that away from her" I frown.

She looks at me. "I think you to need think about yourself. And where you really wanna be in life"

I know where she's getting at.

I do.

And I hate being told it as I've been battling it in my head.

The front door opens and I look at my phone. "I'll call you back mama. I love you"

"I love you" she sadly smiles.

I end the call.

"Tagg!" I hear Callie and I walk out with a fake smile. "I missed you" she smiles and wraps her arms around my neck, going on her tippy toes and passionately kissing me.