Mantra

5

*drops out of high school* welp fml

Oliver's pov

I hate popular kids, well popularly isn't the problem, it's how they act so preppy. So full of themselves. None of them have greater problems than school drama.

But why would one cut? That's the only thing that confuses me. Maybe it's for attention? 

I look at kellin, he's just some popular boy. He has a really hot body and pretty face but he's so.. annoying. When he was high he seemed okay, more normal but he thinks being popular is him being fake. Theres no way he's faking this.

He's just trying to convince himself he's not a bully. But I hear how he talks when he's with his friends. I hear him in the halls being rude to people.

"Holy Hell, its 4! I gotta dash," he interrupts the movie and literally runs out my house. I go to my front door that's now open and look out to see kellin half walking and half running down the sidewalk. 

I would have walked him home but it's kinda to late. I close my front door and walk back in. Hes.. strange.

I wonder if he's still a virgin, probably not. I heard some rumors that he dated a very slutty girl. That and he's around 17 or 18 so he's probably not. I hope he's had sex before because that would mean he'll be easier to get in bed.

Okay these are bad thoughts I know but I'm a bad person. Kellin is interesting. I wonder how is home life is. Is it sunshine and rainbows? I bet it is, he's really happy at school.

But self harm.. maybe that's because he has real struggles.. or maybe he just wanted attention. They looked old so it could just have been a faze.

In my room I see kellin forgot his backpack.. that pink diary looking to tempting to take and read.. I take it out his backpack and look at it. It's got a lock but I could get in within a minute if I wanted..

I think I'm going to keep this, hell just think he lost it or someone stole it.. I dont even care if he finds out I stole it. He hates me anyways.

-time skip like a few days or so- (Friday)

Kellin hasn't even looked in my direction for a few days. I guess it's not a surprise, I am a loser in his eyes. He's been making googly eyes at Vic all day and its making me mad.

"Hey Vic, should we start on our project?" Kellin asks. Vic looks at him and bites his lip. Does Vic like him back? I don't think so, Vic's always talking about Danielle.

"Sure, how about after school at mine house? I'm kinda busy right now," he says gesturing to his friends. At kellin looked happy but then Vic turns back to his friends and kellin shuffles back to writing.

I still haven't read his diary, just because I want him to talk to me first. But I'm not sure if that's going to happen.

Kellin turns to his group of friends and talks about random stuff happily. God hes so annoying. How can someone so hot be so daft?

"And I was like, 'is that a phone in your back pocket because that ass is calling me ' and she gave me her number," he explains to his friends. Oh he's bi.. or he's lying.

First and second block is like everyday, me being bored and watching the class from the back of class. Kellin's always looking at Vic, trying to talk to him, or talking to his friends. He's never quite, he's never serious, he's always happy.. is annoying.  I want to see how he copes with a bad day.

Is that bad of me?

On my way to 3rd block I go into the bathroom.  I don't have to use the bathroom but I have 15 minutes so I'm just going to play on my phone in here.