• SAY WHAT YOU NEED TO SAY • (Jared x Reader)

[13]

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Your POV

"[Y/N]?"

I snapped out of thoughts as I heard a sleepy jared call out my name, I immediately went to where his voice came from (which is just outside his bedroom). I saw him, rubbing his eyes, his hair still messy and god his voice, it's low and raspy. It's sending me tingles up my spine but then I remembered I can never have any of that.

"Good morning"

I say and gave him a smile, he looked at me and smiled back

"Good morning to you too"

ASDFHJKL i would pay anything if everyday I would wake up to this man talking like this.

"Breakfast's ready, so just get yourself ready then we can go to school"

I was about to mention the thing about Alana but I caught him staring

"why are you staring at me? do I have dirt-"

he shakes his head

"No, it's just that, my sweater looks good on you"

He smiles wearily and I felt my cheeks go warm and I know, I was blushing.

"Oh, yeah. Anyways go shower now, and Alana asked for a ride to school"

He looked a bit confused but then relaxed again, he sensed that I opened his phone

"err yeah, that okay with you?"

He says, giving me a concerned look. He should really stop pretending he gives a damn

"yeah, I mean why wouldn't it be?-"

a thought clicked

"actually, I don't want to go to school today"

it's his birthday tomorrow! I have to prepare. I have decided to take a day off from school

"why?"

oof, I try to think of an answer.

"I remembered, I had to run errands but I didn't go home last night so yeah. I'll do them today"

I say confidently so he won't doubt, he shrugs it off and says okay. He retreats to the bathroom as I head back downstairs. I prepared our plates for us and decided to text Connor. I really don't want him mad at me

[NOW ENTERING TEXT MESSAGES AU]

[insert dirty nickname]
hey

[seen]

[insert dirty nickname]
hey... connor

[seen]

[insert dirty nickname]
please don't be mad at me...

[seen]

[insert dirty nickname]
hey. He doesn't like me, he likes you goddamit

typing...

Evan's Daddy
and how do you know that?

[insert dirty nickname]
I'm his bestfriend you idiot

Evan's Daddy
as if I'd fall for that

><><><><><

My face grows hot and I felt warm tears roll down my cheeks, oh no. I can't show him screenshots of evan literally confessing his undying love for connor... I can't just do that to him. But how would I get Connor to believe that his precious Evan Hansen is not into me?

I wipe my tears away and silently waited for Jared, Jared ugh another problem. Why, why oh why did I have to fall for someone who I know will just hurt me. He'll just play me like any other girl, he'll just turn my already burned heart into nothing anymore. Honestly. Even if I know he'll hurt me, he's worth the risk. I'm not afraid. What I'm more afraid of is if he doesn't return the feelings and push me away, if because of my confession, we won't be friends anymore. but again, what's life without a little bit of risk?

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I'm so so so so sorry I didn't update for 3 weeks, we had exams and I wasn't in the best mental state. But fear not for I will not give up on this book, I have big plans I tell you.

lmao is everyone getting bored by the fact that we're 13 chapters in and none of the 2 couples have confessed😂

Well I'm sorry, be patient 💛

~Lai 💋