How My Bully Turned Into My Boyfriend

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"Wait just hear me out first man.... I can't bare to see you walk out the door on me again.... I just can't. I know ur mad at me about something and I think
I already know what it is. So let me just explain okay." I said.

As she stood at the door waiting for me to finish talking she crossed her arms.

"Well go on I'm waiting." She said tapping her leg impatiently.

"Thanks for giving me your time and day. Look I'm very sorry the time they I tried to get you to be mine I was with Nia only to get you jealous and I guess worked." I said.

She motioned herself for me to continue talking.

"Meantime when I was with her.... and you should already know this Tinashe I cant pass up the opportunity of getting pussy I just cant well now that I'm with you i actually can." I said.

"What are you trying to come across here? That yall had sex or something?" Tinashe asked giving me a questionable look.

"Yes Tinashe I slept with her." I finally confessed.

She stood there with a blank expression not knowing how to react to what I have just told her.

I guess she's mad. And I know how she gets when she's upset. She would hide it and pretend everything is fine. It scares me because I hate when she feels like she cant confide in me.

I hope I dont lose her after this.

"Tina? Tina?" I asked her as she looks down on the floor playing with her nails.

"Say something so I could fix this. It was a mistake I should've came to you about it from the start." I said.

Then she raised her head up quickly. "Then why the fuck didnt you?"

"Ight cause I was scared bruh...of losing you. Why dont you get it? It was hard for a night. Usually I dont really do shit like this. I just say it how it is but at least I care about your feelings so of course ima have second thoughts." I said getting annoyed.

"What? Seems like our expecting a thank you out of me? Oh thank you Jahseh for keeping g this secret from me and having to hear it from someone else. Thank you, Thank you, thank you." She said.

This girl's sarcasm is so bad and annoying I still love her though.

"I'm not expecting nothing from you I just want you to understand and i wanna put this whole thing behind us and move on. I'm not letting that bitch excuse my language that woman mess us up. We've came a long way." I said.

"Well I can't forgive you that easily. I need time to think this through. Okay but for right now my career comes first it's my main focus." She said.

I could give her that. Not expecting her to forgive me that fast. I'll admit I was wrong for keeping it from her and not only that but also sleeping with that girl who I dont really fuck with like that.

After it happened with her i regretted everything. I should've been matured enough and found a way to get Tinashe's attention.

Instead I hurt her in the process and I feel disgusted.

I'll make it up to her I promise. I already cut Nia off so that's basically a start.

"I accept your decision. But I'm not giving up on us and I really really hope you find a way to come back to me. I love you." I said walking up to her.

"I'm not going anywhere Tina." I said looking deeply in her eyes.

With that I gave her sweet long kiss on the lips hugging her from behind. She kissed me back and then pulled away.

"Um.. you should go now. I have to get back to working." She said looking down and turning around to open the door for me.

"Call me or text me whenever you ready." I said giving her a smile and then I walked out the studio.

After I walked out, I checked my phone to see Nia already texting me. I'm really gonna put some sense into this bitch's head.

It's bad enough I already brought her into my life and fucked around with her that cost my relationship with ths woman that I'm in love with.

I seen her message she asked me to come meet her at her house since her parents aren't home. I'm not meeting her no where I'm taking my ass home and start doing me.

I drove home and sat on my bed beginning to write in my songbook as I started playing on my guitar what I usually do when in my feelings.

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Tinashe's P.O.V
As I begin to work on this new song I couldn't stop thinking about what Jahseh said to me.

Him apologizing for what he did wont erase anything because for weeks now I've been hurting and I dont think I'll ever get over it maybe not tomorrow but definitely not now.

He did all of that just for me to date him it's disgusting and ridiculous. Because I'm pretty sure if he had came to me with this things would've happened differently between us.

But he was right... the time when he was at the mall with Nia and the times when he would flirt with her in front me I'm not gonna lie it really felt like I've been stabbed a thousand times in the back because I was actually crushing on him.

It doesn't excuse him for doing that and on top of that he kept it from me and I had to hear it from someone I cant even remember who told me that's irrelevant this whole shit is.

I dont even wanna be able to think about it. It sucks. It really sucks.

Anyways, my career comes first and that's exactly how it's gonna be from now on even if me and him dont get off from good terms.

I've always been told you dont always need a boy or anyone to make you feel special about yourself.

It could be something that you create from the heart.... like your own talent.

Its been hard updating but I promise I'll keep up with you guys!!!! Enjoyyyyyy