"I will always be there." ㅣ Kim Woosung - ON HOLD

14 : "The First Tears."

(A/N : /!\ warning → I'm kind of in a bad mood lately so there's a new angsty chapter BUT with fluff at the end ;) )

[WEDNESDAY

4:24 AM]

You were in bed with him.
He fell asleep about 30 minutes ago and you couldn't help but look at his beautiful face, memorizing all his single features
You couldn't help but playing over and over what happened the other night.
It haunted you, all the memories were coming in your mind like a wave crashing against the rocks on the beach.
The scents, the noises, the feelings, you couldn't forget about all this. It was keeping you awake since three days and today wasn't going to be an exception.
You sighted as you watched the sleeping figure of your boyfriend laying next to you in the dim light of your living room.
He looked so peaceful like this, his eyebrows were frowning from time to time, he also scrunched his nose while doing so and honestly, it was one of those incredibly cute things he was doing unconsciously that never failed to make your heart melt.
You thought about what could've happened if he wasn't there at that party 238 days ago.

Maybe you would've met someone else, maybe you wouldn't have met anyone.
Maybe your life would've been sadder, no love nor joy in the picture, or maybe you would've been happier - no - you couldn't be happier.
You felt like the happiest being on earth, you had a boyfriend who loved you has much as you did, you had a great job, a nice apartment, incredible friends, everything was perfect.
Wasn't it ?
If it was really perfect then why did you cried until you almost fainted on the bridge the other day ?
Bad thoughts started to fill up your mind again, erasing all these good memories for the night as your breath was heavier, you started sobbing as your eyes watered.
The image of your boyfriend now becoming blurry as tears were streaming down your face while the scenario from Sunday night was replaying in your head.
You shifted to stop looking at him and tried to calm down.
The light shakes from your body didn't fail to aware your - former - sleeping boyfriend as he mumbled :
"Hey, are you okay ?"
You stopped moving as if he was going to think you were sleeping and just having a bad dream. But you didn't fool him as he spoke again, a little louder this time :
"Y/N, come on. Talk to me, what's wrong ?", finishing his phrase, he turned around in the hope to see your face but only seeing your back he sighted and patted it to be sure that he got your attention.

After a minute or two, you finally answered :
" I - I'm scared.
- Hm ? What are you scared of ?" Woosung asked with obvious concern in his voice.
"I'm scared that you might leave me because you'll find someone better than me, because I'm not good enough for you anymore. I can't stop thinking you would've been better without me in your life, maybe everything would've been better if I never came here in Korea and stayed in my motherland with my family. Maybe without me on this earth, everything would've been perfect. And what if -"

He grabbed you by the shoulder so you were now facing him and shushed you with a long and passionate kiss, wiping the tears on your cheeks with both of his thumbs before stroking your hair.
"Angel, calm down, take a deep breath and listen to me : I believe that everything is happening for a reason okay ? So if I met you, it was for a good reason. You came here to find a new purpose to your life, you didn't come for no reason, you belong here, at your job, in this apartment, with your friends, with me." he paused for a second, looking at your face softly before carrying on :
"I am so sorry I didn't realize what you were going through earlier and that this had to happen for me to open my eyes about the situation. I should take care of you as much as you do take care of me. I've been acting like the worst boyfriend ever and I promise I'm going to do my best to make it up to you. I want to be with you in the good and bad moments of your life, just call me whenever you need someone to talk to, even if you have nothing to say, I'll be there. I love you more than there are stars in the sky baby."

All he said left you speechless and he then pulled you in his embrace, whispering sweet nothings in you ear, humming a few songs and kissing the top of your head from time to time until you fell asleep in his arms.

[10:37 AM]

You slowly woke up, bringing your hands to your face and rub your red puffy eyes before taking your time to open them, adjusting your view to the bright light coming through the curtains. You pated the space next to you, hoping to reach your boyfriend but you didn't feel anything except the sheets, you completely opened your eyes and saw nothing, you sat up and looked around you to be welcomed by the view of your lover making finishing cooking breakfast in the kitchen.
You smiled widely as he did the same, noticing you were finally awake.
He walked up to you, holding a tray full of your favorite food and drink.
"Hey sleepyhead" he said placing the tray on the coffee table at the end of the couch.
"Hey you" you lazily answered before he leaned on to kiss your forehead and gently stroke your cheek.
"You prepared all this ? you asked pointing at the food.
- Yes I did ! he said proud of himself, I'm not sure it's going to taste good though... I'm not that good at cooking." he awkwardly admitted.
"I'm sure it's gonna taste amazing ! And even if it doesn't, the fact that you tired means a lot to me. It really does. Thank you so much Sammy.
- That's the least I can do for you after tonight.
- Let's not talk about this and eat what you prepared !" you joyfully said before taking a bite of the food placed on the tray.
Woosung was looking at you, trying to guess if you liked it or not.
"It's actually not that bad.." you said chewing on the food.
"Really ? You like it ?
- Yeah, I do, it's pretty good, here." you handed him a fork full of food as he put it in his mouth.
"It's not as bad as I thought it would be !" he finally said after swallowing the food you gave him.

His face lighted up, he was so proud of himself, he was proud he made you happy with such a simple gesture and promised to himself that he would always make you breakfast after spending the night with you.

You both spend the rest of the day cuddling, watching movies and series, talking about your worries and dreams, simply enjoying each other's presence.