You Did This To Me - ON HOLD

You Did This To Me -11-

Ok I have a Christmas Party TONIGHT!!! YAY!! So here is a little bit to keep you going!!

　

　

Chris' POV

The Days passed by slowly but the nights were even longer. I was afraid to leave her alone because I knew as soon as her eyelids shut the nightmares would begin. I had to leave her to herself though, she had to trust me. So I would lay in bed waiting for the screaming to start. Every time she screamed I could feel my whole body constrict and break out in a light sweat. She needed me more than she thought but she was too stubborn to say anything. Each night was the same ritual over and over. I would go to her and lay down behind her. While whispering to her I would stroke her hair until she woke up. Than I would pull her into me and wrap my arms around her and the twins. I could never feel happier than in the moments that she let me hold her.

They would always end though with her falling asleep and me tip toeing out into my own room. I didn't want to over step my boundaries. Every night made me more and more sure in my decision not to tell her about Mike. Since the police did nothing I would protect her myself. I knew if she found out she would never look at me again because I am technically lying, but I have to keep her sane. These night mares are making it hard though.

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It was two a.m. and I could hear the beginning of her whimpering start. Sighing to myself I got out of bed and crawled into hers. I laid on my back tracing circles on her shoulders and listened to her constant whispers.

"No please." Than a few moments of silence.

"You cant hurt them, there not yours. Your not their father!" Was she talking about me? I propped myself on my elbow and watched her face contort into different expressions as she went on.

"I said No!" Soft whimpering and thrashing of her head.

"Please Mike, Not again." I wanted to badly to kiss those lips that were quivering, but I knew it was better to let her wake herself than for me to. Last time I got punched in the gut and it hadn't felt so nice.

"No. No. NO! I said I wont love you!" The tears started to escape her eyelids again and I wiped away a stray tear with my finger. Her hand went up to her face and caught my hand as she kept babbling. I looked at her with my eyes wide. She was gripping my hand, leaning into it. Did I feel safe to her? Was she finally letting me into her life?

"Mike I will never love you!" Her mumbles were almost screams.

"No. Please don't hurt Chris!" Chris? Me? I watched her face changed from paint to sheer horror.

"NO! I LOVE HIM!" This time she screamed it and bolted straight up into a sitting position. Shocked beyond belief I slowly sat up beside her. Was she talking to me?

"You alright Andy? This one seemed worse than the others.." She started bawling and crumpled over onto her pregnant belly.

"Usually.. Usually its only memories." Another sob.

"Th-this one, this one was something more horrible!" She broke down again and I slowly wrapped myself around her body, always scared that she will reject me. To my surprise and delight she pushed her body into me and gripped at my bare shoulders. It felt as if she was clinging to me for dear life.

"What happened baby girl?" She sobbed and shook her head no. Sighing I nodded.

"It's okay, you don't have to tell me." She gripped me tighter, and I just couldn't handle or control my body anymore.

My lips found the nape of her neck and I slowly started to plant soft yet urgent kisses onto her soft skin. She crying eventually lessened and her body softened into mine. I took this as a good sign and leaned her onto her back with myself leaning over top of her.

Her eyes shone with an intensity that scared the crap out of me and her lips were set into a line with the corners slightly bent up. If I hadn't been looking for any good signs I would have never seen the tiny smile displayed on her lips.

I slowly brought my lips back to her neck and explored down to her collar bone than back up to her ear lobe again. I could hear her breathing quicken but not once did she try and stop me. Did she love me? Was she talking about me?

Andy's lips parted slightly and I heard a low moan escape her lips. This only cause me to become aroused even further and I brought my hand to her waist and my kisses became more urgent. Andy's body stiffened and immediately I stopped and looked into her eyes. All at once they changed from ones of love to filled with hatred.

Andy's POV

He was kissing me. My body could not control its self and I soon fell into his awaiting arms. Slowly he laid me down and searched my face for anything that would tell him no. I gave none. I wanted his soften tender comfort. All of a sudden though he became urgent and memories of Mike washed through my brain. My body stiffened and anger coursed through my veins. He was just like Mike, another male using me to get what he wants. Maybe I made a mistake when I said yes. Chris was starting to know me too well and my weakness were beginning to become apparent. The wedding was two weeks away. I still had time to back out.

Chris face popped into view His eyes were searching mine frantically and I hardened them,

"Are you happy with yourself?!" I snapped. He looked dejected and hurt. All I wanted to do was say sorry, but I couldn't. He couldn't control me.

Chris sighed and I swore I could see his eyes glaze over with pain. I really hate myself sometimes.