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lack of motivation

Motivation is something i've kinda lacked recently.

As soon as I finished planning my dipper x reader, i lost a lot of motivation for writing. I just realized how terrible my writing has been and how low detailed it's been. So, ive written absolutely nothing for that story this entire week. I know what I want to do, but with how bad my writing has gotten and with everything happening in my life, i havent wanted to write that much. I really love writing, but ive come to terms with my lack of skill when it comes to writing, so im trying to rethink my writing techniques.

Not only have I lost motivation with writing, ive also lost some motivation with drawing and art. Ive become really uncreative and it takes me a whole day or even two to think of something worth my time to draw. In reality, i should just draw the first things that come to my mind even if it doesnt turn out well, but ive only drawn 2 things all week in comparison to my average of multiple drawings a day. I envision things very vividly, but i can never get them on paper the way i want to. I let go of being a perfectionist when it comes to my grades in school, now i need to work on letring go of being a perfectionist when it comes to my art. I may still love drawing and painting, but I really need to take my time with things and relax.

Along with drawing and writing, ive lost motivation for playing my ukelele. I got my ukelele about a month ago(?) And i played it nonstop, every day, but this week havent played it at all. I love playing ukelele, and it helps me relax, but ive had no time to relax this week.

Ive had too much stress this week, I think. On wednesday, i had a bunch of math homework as well as a research assignment for my english class. I worked myself nonstop with no breaks just to get everything done. At least today i had some time to relax and hang out with an old friend for halloween. We dressed up, watched a movie, and ate a bunch of candy!

Conclusion: i apologize, but i might not post much for a week or two. I need to take my time getting back to wanting to pick up my hobbies again. At the moment, school work is consuming my free time, so i dont have any chances to write thoroughly, draw for a good while, or learn a new song on ukelele. For now, im taking a little bit of a break.

I hope you can forgive my absence for the time being, and thank you for taking your time to read this; i know some people dont always have a lot to spare. I know, i might have been rambling a little in this, sorry.

(10/31/2019 10:49 PM)