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Ana had never thought she could run this fast. first from her apartment, to the closest taxi, and then up to the 6th stair, so she can be with her girlfriend. she knocked so hard, her knuckles started to hurt. it took Zendaya 2 minutes to open the door, but Ana felt like it was an hour. she was so scared something had happened.
When she saw Zendaya, her heart just broke. she had never seen her crying. but here they were. the shorter girl sobbing into the other girl's neck while they were standing in the door way.
"sssh, it's okay... i'm here" Ana coo'd her girlfriend "let's go inside, chérie... then we can talk, okay?" Zendaya nodded, and walked into the flat, holding Ana's girlfriend.
"thank you for coming" Zendaya whispered. Ana hugged her again "and i'm also sorry, cause it's so late, and i know you working this time, or sleeping and you had to-" she was cut off by her own sobbing.
"no, baby. you did right by calling me. i was doing nothing." Ana hugged her girlfriend tighter "what happened, mon amour? what made you feel this way?"
"i don't know... i was just packing my stuff, and suddenly i felt so miserable, but i wanted to keep doing the packing, but after a while i just had to lay down, and i couldn't breathe, and i felt so panicked, i had to call you" she cried silently "i was laying on the floor 'till you came"
Ana only noticed the boxes, and the mess when Zendaya mentioned it. Z was leaving in a few days, and neither of them talked about it yet. they didn't know what's going to happen when Z leaves, and for some reason they didn't want to know. Ana suddenly felt her heart shrinking. the girl she loved the most was basically ready to leave her. she felt selfish when she was thinking about asking her to stay. Paris wasn't Z's home, and Ana alone can't keep her here.
"oh, my dear Zennie...." Ana layed a kiss on Zendaya's forehead "let's sit down, okay?" she looked at couch, that was covered in clothes "or let's go to your room, and lay down" they both giggled.
"oh, yeah... the house is a mess. i don't really think the bed is any different" she sighed, smiling.
"yeah, but maybe the beat option is the bed... if we fall asleep, we better do it on the bed, since it's comfier" Ana said, and started to guide her girlfriend towards the bedroom.
they silently tidied up a little, so they can lay down. they quickly cuddled up together, under a blanket. the only lights, in the room, were the city lights from the outside.
"we have to talk about it....." Zendaya said, after awhile, as she sat up.
"i know"
"what's gonna happen?" zendaya looked at Ana, who just looked at her hands.
"i don't know. I guess we keep talking, and try manage this relationship" Ana murmured, playing with her fingers. she heard Zendaya sigh, and then huddle herself up.
"please be serious" she whispered.
"i'm sorry, but i don't know what's going to happen. you are probably going to work on movies, and i will be here, writing books, and trying to get my shit together. we will be apart a lot, and maybe the if we-" Ana was cut off by the other girl.
"why does it sound like you wanna break up?" zendaya murmured as she held her head.
"Z, you know that maybe that's the best" Ana said as she pulled Zendaya into her arms, but Z just pushed her away. it wasn't a hard push, but Ana felt her heart break a little.
"and for who?" she asked dramatically "i know that not for me! i know i would be fucking heart broken, cause you, my friend, have a huge part in my life now, and now you just wanna tear yourself apart from me. and i know you wanna be together, but you're afraid that something bad will happen, and you will be left heart broken... please don't throw this away. please. you know how hard for me to open up for people, and you know how easy it was with you... cause i love you more than anything in my life, and i don't think that it would be fair if any of us would throw this away, so please... i'm begging you, just give this one more chance" Zendaya sobbed. Ana silently took her hand, and finally pulled her into a hug. they layed down.
"i'm so sorry..." sniffed Ana "i don't wanna break up... i just... i don't even know. it will be so hard" she said.
"i know" whispered Z "but it will be all worth it, when we see each other again."
Ana hummed. they quietly lied in each other's arms. both were afraid of the future, unaware of what's going to happen, but they didn't wanna think about. they didn't wanna know. they just wanted to enjoy the last moments, they could have before Zendaya goes home.
"i have a confession to make" Ana said, half asleep, Z just hummed in response "i don't want you to go"
"i also have a confession to make" Zendaya giggled "i don't wanna go either."
"i love you too...." Ana whispered, the she kissed Zendaya's forehead "i love you too, my only Zennie"
═══════════ ¡Hola! ═══════════ i'm sorry i haven't posted but one of the chapters was so ducking hard for my brain i lost every inspiration for this story. but now i'm here, and i try to post from now on. the hiatus is still valid, till i write some more chapters first. i hope everything is ok, and everybody is safe in this challenging times. i just wanna remind you guys, whoever reads this, please please please sign petitions to help the Black Lives Matter Movement. if you don't know which one should you sign, just ask me. thank you, and tpwk 💛🤍💛🤍
