Can't Let Go

Chapter 7: How will he react?

August 3rd 2021 Sage came home for work. I had cried myself to sleep that night. Sage came into the room that morning to wake me up. After Sage woke me up he asked, " Did you two have funwhile I was gone?" I didn't want him to see my face because he would be able to tell that I had been crying. I couldn't say anything cause my voice would've gave away the fact that I had been cry too, so I just nodded my head. Sage sat on the bed and started to tickle me because he knew that was the only way to get me to get up. But this time, I didn't laugh. He tried to look at my face but I just buried it deep in my pillow. He lifted me up and that caused him so she my face. What's wrong?, Sage says with concern. I felt so guilty! But I had to tell him the truth because I didn't want to keep secrets from him. So I took a deep breath in and said, "We went to visit Zen. He apologized for all the things he's done and he's doing good now. He said that he wants us to be a happy family with just Daya and I." I told Sage the other minor details of the conversation. I finally told Sage about when we were leaving that Zen kissed me and that I didn't pull away at first. Sage's face changed so quickly into rage. "Why did you go visit that bastard!", Sage screamed. I responded, "He deserves to see his daughter"! We argued back and forth. I'm so fed up with this! You can go be with him!, Sage yelled. Maybe I will, I responded. I started to pack Daya's and I's things. I buckled Daya up in her seat that was in the car and I went back in the housefor my phone. Sage was sitting on the bed, His face was fiery red. "If you don't understand then maybe we shouldn't be together", I said with anger. I took off the engagment ring snd threw it at him as I left. I went back to Jansonville, I stayed with Leah and her boyfriend Daniel. I told her everything that happened and she comforted me. The next day, I went back to visit Zen. I broke down in tears and told him everything that happened with Sage and I. " He's selfish and he shouldn't be with you. But you and me were meant to be together. We are soulmates Sabrina", Zen says calmly. I love him Zen, I don't want to leave him, I said. He doesn't deserve you and he clearly doesn't care about you or Daya. No you got it all wrong Zen, he took care of me when you weren't there. He stayed my side and he loved Daya and I. He just doesn't understand me at times and he's just upset about me seeing you. Why are you defending him?, Zen says with a little anger in his voice. I'm not, you just act like he's a bad person but he's not. Zen sighs, You love him. I remember how you used to tell people that I wasn't a bad person. You were the only person that ever believed in me Sabrina. Im always better when your around. I want to be in Zendaya's life, I want to see her grow up but I can't because I'm stuck in here. I know Zen, I said calmly. I can try my best to keep you involved in her life. I can send you letters and pictures. "I'm happy I have you. Your the only two people I have as family and I dont want to loose you guys. I love you both and I know I messed things up but I want to make things work", Zen says. I love you Zen, but I don't want to be with you. I'm sorry to tell you this but we can only be firends and nothing more. Zen frowns, he looks pissed! He then hits the table and says, "I love you and I know you love me. But you keep showing me mixed emotions! If you want to be with him and come here and I act like you want me too then you can leave"! I stood up, he hugged Daya, I grabbed her and left. Days later, Sage called me and said that he wanted me to come back home. I drove back to California. When we arrived back home, I could tell that Sage hadn't sleep in a while. I told him about my visit with Zen and that I wasn't going to see him anymore. We talked about us and we decided to still get married in February. A month later, we were inseparable. We threw Zendaya a birthday party. She was turning 3, she loved princesses so we threw her a princess themed party. All the kids from the neighborhood came over. Daya wore a big pink dress, her hair was straightened, and she had on a crown. I took pictures so that I could send them to Zen. Everyone brought little gifts like dolls and coloring books. We bought Daya a barbie dreamhouse. As Zendaya got older, she started to look more and more like Zen. I just couldn't believe how big she was getting. After we were done having parties, we started to plan for out wedding. On our wedding day, all the bridemaids and groomen wore royal blue. Everyone that was't in the wedding wore black ans silver. I couldn'r wait to be with Sage the rest of my life. Our wedding was everything I dreamed it would be and more. After the wedding ceremony, we went straight to the airport to go on our hineymoon in the Bahamas. It was so beautiful and we were waited on by hand and foot. We were there for a week before it was time to go back home. We had such an amazing time that we didn't want to leave but we miss Zendaya so much. When we got home, Zendaya was waiting at the door for us to arrive. We were so happy to be back and start our new life together. Later that week, Zendaya started her first day of school. She was growing uo so fast! I missed having a baby crawling all over the place. I thought that it was time to ask Sage if he was ready for another child running around the house soon.