Can't Let Go

Chapter 8: Control

March 13th, 2023                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Zendaya is almost 4 years old now and she's starting to get lonely. Sage and I made the decision that months before Daya turns 4 that we would try to have a baby together. Today is the day, I took Zendaya over to Mia's house because Mia had a baby 2 months ago and Daya has been dying to see the new baby. When we got to Mia's house, Daya ran to the door. She was so excited. Mia opened the door and let us in. Zendaya asked anxiously, " Where's the baby?" Mia reached down into the crib and picked up the cutest baby that I've seen other than Daya. Zendaya asked if she could hold the baby. Mia replied, " You have to ask your mommy." I told her that she could but she had to sit down and be gentle with him. I picked Daya up and sat her on the couch and Mia layed the baby in her arms. Daya asked with curiousity, " What's the baby's name?" Mia responded, his name is Liam Xavier Smithson. Liam had the cutest little nose, he had freckles, and curly brown hair. While Daya was occupied with Liam, Mia and I had a serios conversation about my mom being engaged to a man 20 years younger than her. My wouldn't let me meet him. My dad died years ago but it still hurt to know that my mom was going to be married to another man. Mia expressed her concerns about my mother being brain washed by her fiancee'. Since she met her fiancee', she has been isolating herself from everyone that loves her but I couldn't worry about that right now. I had other business to attend to if you know what I mean. Whe I returned home, Sage was nowhere in sight. I went upstairs to our bedroom. As I entered the bedroom, I seen roses all over the place, candles were lit, and romantic music was playing. Sage came out the bathroom with nothing on but his boxers. Are you ready to make some babies?, Sage says seductively. I walked to Sage and whispered in his ear, " I don't think your ready." I then started to him hickeys while he started to rip off my clothes. I pushed him on the bed. I got on top of him. I kissed him aggressively. I felt so in control when I was on top of Sage because I never felt like I was in control when I was with Zen. It felt good to have control, I felt like I had all the power in the world. I started to choke Sage as I rode him which made me feel like I was in charge. When we both reached our climax, we layed next to eachother panting like dogs. Sage turned to face me and said " WOW.... I never seen that side of you before but I like it!" A week later, I started to feel sick all the time. So I decided to go buy a pregnancy test. When I got home, I went to the bathroom and peed on the test. Five monutes later, the results came back as positive. I was so excited and couldn't  wait to tell Sage. Then I got a phone call from Mia. My mother was in the hospital and she had a seizure. I got in the car and drove as fast as I could to Jansonville. When I arrived to the hospital, Mia huggged me and told me that the doctor said she almost died. She directed me to my mother's room. As I walked into the room, a man with dark brown hair was standing over my mom's bed. He looked over at me and said, " Hi, I'm Chris........ You must be Tracy's daughter Sabrina." He reached out to shake my hand but I didn't shake it because he gave me creepy vibes. I then said, You look familair..... Have we met? No I didn't think so, Chris said as he observed me. How do you know my mom?, I said with curiousity. I'm Tracy's fiancee'.  My mom started to wake up so I walked to the side of the bed. Mom, how do you feel?, I asked. Sabrina? I'm happy your here, I feel fine, my mom said with certainty. So this is your fiancee'? I asked. Yes this is Chris, my mom said nervously. The doctor came in, " Ok, Ms. Tracy we couldn't find what was causing the seizures so I'm gonna give you some pills to try to stop them from happening. But your gonna be released today", the dostor says. Well I'm gonna stay with you mom, I said. No sweetie, I have Chris, my mom said while looking up at Chris. I'll just be for a few days, Sage can take care of things back home. When we arrived to my old house, I went up to my old room and called Sage. I told him what happened and that I was going to be gone for a few days. I didn't want to tell him that I was pregnant until I seen him in person. Later that night, I went to go check on my mom. I peeked in her room and seen that she was asleep. As I was closing the door, Chris came behind me and said, "What are you doing?" You scared the life out of me!, I said with fear in my voice. I was just checking on my mom, I said with reassurance. Your sure? or were you checking up on me?, Chris said with a smirk on his face. He then walked closer to me. I started to breathe heavily. Don't be scared, I'm not gonna bite, Chris said flirtatiously. I gotta go, I said as my voice cracked. I walked fast to my room but I could still feel Chris' eyes on me. When I got to my room, I locked the door and went to sleep.