Killer Love (Jeff x Reader)

Chapter Forty Seven:

October 27th 2019

Music: Marble Tea - Shawn Wasabi

Hi guys, sorry for the super late update. I'm drowning in death, suffering more death, depression, another pinch of death and math thank u.

Y/N

"Jeff?..." I murmured as I hugged him from behind. He didn't respond, I couldn't tell if he was ignoring me or was actually asleep.

"Jeffahhh" I whined purposely to annoy him. It was frustrating that he was mad at me even though I had nothing to do with this situation.

I let out a groan of defeat as I unwrapped my arms around him and turned to face the other side of the bed. I angrily wrapped the blanket over my body and snuggled into it in sadness.

After a few moments, I was disappointed. I was expecting some cliche moment where he would hug me, drown me in kisses and apologized for being a bitch, but he didn't.

He stayed quiet and only did small movements to adjust his sleeping position. I kept on giving him the side eye, even though our room was pitch black and he was wearing a sleeping mask.

I had hoped that he would notice...or feel my side eye and would say something. Then out of nowhere, I felt his arms wrap around me before I felt a soft kiss get planted on my cheek.

"Goodnight Y/N" he mumbled to me. It annoyed me and made me melt at the same time.

He said it in such a loving way, but he had ignored me trying to start the conversation.

"Jeff, are you mad at me? Because that's not fair. You know that right? I've done nothing wrong-"

"I'm not mad." He told me sternly as he broke the hug. "I'm just...-... Nevermind.."

"Jeff... You can't just avoid every single thing. I tell you about how I'm feeling, but you're so damn closed off-" I let out an annoyed sigh and just stopped talking.

I knew if I continued I'd say a paragraph of ranting, it wouldn't even matter.

After a moment of silence, I closed my eyes and attempted to sleep, but then I heard his voice speak up again.

"I feel..." he paused "Mad and sad"

"Mhm??" I hummed, wanting more of an answer. He was using kid language to explain his feelings

He continued on "Because.....I don't want you to leave me"

I turned my head to him in surprise, but at the back of the head, this was one of the possibilities that I had thought of before. "What are you talking about?" I mumbled

"EJ is better than me in so many ways. He's more gentle and shows his feelings so much better- he can understand you better.. I just..- I can't.." Jeff seemed reluctant in telling me these things.

He hid his face into the blankets when I sat up and look at him. "Jeff" I called out softly as I touched him by the shoulder.

"I told you how I'm feeling, now can we just sleep..??" He growled

I let out a sharp exhale as I laid back down onto the bed. I stared at his back, he seemed to be in a even worse mood than before.