SOPE

Min Yoonji

I was shaking violently, how had I not waken up Hoseok? He was laying on my shoulder, curled up in a blanket and his arms were holding me tightly around my chest. He looked so peaceful in his perfect dream world. How could I hurt him like that? He already felt ill and I only made it worse. I really am the worst boyfriend. I don't deserve Hoseok. I spent over an hour trying to think of something to make it up to him, when I heard the others arriving. Quietly, I woke up Hoseok and moved away from him to turn off the TV. He lay there gazing at me with a sad expression on his face. I quickly opened the door and stuck my head out, "Hi guys we'll be there in a second ok?". I brought myself back in and sat down on the sofa next to him. "You OK? I'm sorry about earlier I didn't mean to make it worse I was just angry that he'd stressed you out that much. Please forgive me," I pleaded. "Of course I forgive you you were only worried about me that's all, no harm was done. Jungkook might me a little nervous but it's fine OK." He reassured me, his hand on my cheek. I put my hand on his, "Thanks Hoseok, now let's go and say hello to the others before they worry,".
      "Hey guys," "Hi," Hoseok and I chimed as I closed the door behind us. The maknaes were dancing and singing  DNA together while Namjoon lent against the worktop and smiled, Jin was standing next to him playing the guitar along to them with a smile just as wide. Hoseok laughed and ran in to join Namjoon but more enthusiastically. I slowly followed behind Hoseok, laughing the whole way. At the maknaes, at our situation, at Hoseok, at myself and at the idea of Hoseok caring about something like me. And yet here we are.

After they'd finished the song for the 12th time (only because they got too tired, especially Jimin ), Jungkook came up to us, took a large swig of water and asked Hoseok if he could talk again. Not once did he look at me, at least he isn't that dumb. I turned to Hoseok pleading for him not to go but his sad eyes said it all: he had to go. I nodded without looking at Jungkook and turned to Tae to distract myself from the idea of Hoseok being alone with Jungkook . A few minutes later of pretending to listen to Jimin rant about who knows what, Hoseok came back, he looked shocked then whispered something to Jungkook when he saw me, Jungkook nodded, I glared. Quickly I checked no-one was looking then grabbed Hoseok's hand and pulled him close, not looking away from Jungkook once. "What happened?! " I whispered to Hoseok as soon as Jungkook was gone. "I'll tell you later OK, it's too risky to tell you here," he reassured me. "OK" I sighed.
     A few hours later Jin started making dinner while the others went to play video games. I took Hoseok upstairs for more privacy. "OK what did he say, and don't avoid it please," There was a long pause as Hoseok took a deep breath in, and then he told me the last thing I expected.