Revenge:As She Lay

Chapter 30

-Listen to all of the stars :ed Sherran on Repeat-
Jason POV
-1 year Later-

I stood in the back as everyone was seated and dressed in all black..listening to each other give memorable stories of the girl who brought smiles to so many faces...whose eyes were the most beautiful colors and whose smile was contagious...that was Aria Delgotto for you. But some dumb ass had to go and cut her life short...that dumb ass being me.

I wear my black jacket with black skinny jeans and shoes and a black hat that would shield me from being notice by anyone as I looked around the teary eyed crowd. I look to the front row and see Mara and Fredo with tears coming down their cheeks. They recently moved out and applied to the same college. Now they both study to be chefs. I look down the row and see Sierra and Ryan. Ryan recently got a job as a mechanic and Sierra does hair at a salon. Both of them have met each others parents and are taking their relationship to the next level.

I lightly smile as I look next to them to see chaz and Cameron...the most interesting couple ever. Chaz and Cameron have recently been hanging out and going to Disney land a lot. Turns out they both have a thing for Hogwarts or some shit like that. Weird shit. I finally look at the next row to see the girl that been by my side through it all and has stuck there but finally chose to leave. Brice. Brice and Khalil and trying to move slow but I found out that they bought a place together and are getting a little more serious.

I smile at the little three year old that sitting on her lap and Alex...my own brother sitting next to them.

Arias mother places a picture of Aria and a bouquet of flowers on Arias grave. Everyone stands up and I hide behind a tree as everyone says their goodbyes...walking off in different directions. The friends I once had, all dispersing and acting like they don't know each other...like nothing ever happened. When the coast is clear, I walk over to the grave and look down at it before looking to the side to see her father's grave next to hers. I give them a small smile.

"Everything's changed Aria....so so much. I regret the shit I've done to you. I'm sorry for everything I put you through and I know sorry doesn't do shit...but....I just...I just miss you" I say as I clench my jaw..trying not to cry.

"You made me feel actual love...not some fuck em and leave em shit. You made me a man Aria...and no fucking girl I meet will ever be able to do what you did to me. I miss your whining, you natural looks, your sly grins, your annoying comments..I miss it all. I miss having you in my arms. I surely miss the gang too. Everyone's moved on with life. The night you died. .they all packed up and left the next day. They are sick of me and my fucks...... my problems....all the shit I put all of them through. Its so hard walking through that damn house and not expecting Sierra, Cameron, and Mara to be cooking, Chaz and Ryan to be playing video games in the living room, Fredo trying on girl clothes in the mirror, Khalil talking to me about cars or making out with his girlfriend all over the damn house. Its hard not to want Brice's smart mouth or your cheerful spirit being around. I'm alone....I'm always gonna be......alone. I wanna change baby but....its hard. My fucking brother doesn't want me around....I might be bad for his kid." I shake my head smiling.

"I wanted to kill myself last night...cause I knew what today was...I knew I'd remember this day;your memorial; when I killed you.....I knew I'd see all of this and them and remember everything..... but I stopped myself....cause I knew you wouldn't want me on that path."

I pull out her promise ring and kiss it before placing it in the dirt of her grave. I touched her grave stone before standing up and looking at the sky.

"No sense in changing now....I'm alone....I'll always be alone...and I'm ok with it. I love you baby girl."

I walk down the street not looking back. I don't even know where I'm heading but I know she's watching over me.

-No ones POV-

I dug the ring out of the dirt where the broken boy left it as I looked to see his figure disappearing into the sunlight

"I am watching over you Jason, and I love you too".

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The end