Falling Away with You (Belldom)

I'm freezing and losing way (part 10)

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Dom's POV

The cave echoed with the sounds of Matt's sobs followed by my sobs. I don't know why I was sobbing so much, just I had no idea Matt had had these types of issues in the past and was still suffering from them when I first knew him and I had no idea and I did nothing to help him...I suppose it doesn't matter how rich you are or what you have in your life anything can happen to you and none even realises most of the time. I felt bad.
Matt was 13 when he had BPD and depression that goes to show that not even age matters that much, 13? When I was 13 I was living some stupid fantasy life being homeschooled with my cousins and playing make believe stuff, how could Matt deserve this? How? I couldn't live without Matt, if something had happened to him where would I be now?

I hugged him tighter, he was still sobbing.
"I told myself I wouldn't cry over something that's from the past because it doesn't matter, but it does...I don't miss Calvin anymore I just miss what we used to have, he was such a great friend and I fucking ruined it..."
"Matt, don't worry, it's ok to cry..."
"I blamed Calvin for the fact I had depression and BPD when it was only ever my fucking fault..."
Matt was sobbing so much I don't know how he was even breathing.
"Matt...you couldn't help it, it was just bad timing and he wasn't understanding..."
"Fuck Dom, he only said all the shit over messages because he wouldn't have to face me in real life ever again, he used me!"
Matt was now yelling angrily through his sobs.
"Ssshh Matt, it's over now...I'm here...it's ok..."
I hugged him as he stuffed his face into my chest and silently cried.
"I hate for you to see me like this...I'm so pathetic all I ever do with you is cry..."
I took his face into my hands and looked at him in his watery electric blue eyes.
"You're still perfect even when you're crying Matthew."
"So are you Dom."
I wiped the tears from my eyes, I was going to be strong for Matt.
"Matt, I...I-I'm really honoured you trusted me to tell
me this." I said as Matt softly cried into my chest as I stroked his messy hair.
He looked up to the ceiling.
"I'm a wreck..." he muttered.
"How about we take you home hmm? You've got me at your house all week, you're not getting rid of me easily Bellamy."
Matt's mischievous smile was back.
"Such a shame that I have Dominic Howard all to myself for a whole week." He sighed.
"I'm cursed with bad luck...have the most perfect boyfriend ever...I love you idiot..." he said as he looked at me then looked away as he started to blush.
"I love you too Matty Bells, if you need anything I promise I'll always be here for you as your boyfriend and as your friend."
"Best friend." Matt corrected.
"As your boyfriend and best friend."
Matt's smirk was back, his one crooked tooth out of place, usually crooked teeth are weird but Matt's makes him look cute and unique.
"When you're done staring I would like to go home and eat junk food and watch movies."
"I wasn't staring!" I say as my face turns red.
"Aww you're blushing, still haven't got used to this pretty face yet?" Matt asks mockingly.
I pick him up as I did before, he turns pink.
I lean in to kiss him, when I look back at him his face is now bright red.
"I think you're not used to me kissing that pretty face..."
"You're such an asshole sometimes..." he says.
"Now lets go I've gotta carry you down a whole hill."
"No you don't I can walk..."
"Well maybe I just want to make you blush."
Matt blushed.
He's so cute omfg.
I'm glad he's doing better now I'll do anything to help him.

Yo I've had too much alcohol in cider so I'll
Probably read this chapter and think it's trash and has way too much Flirting and romance but a good spicy chapter is needed every now and then... ;)
Anyways....thanks for reading new chapter coming soon this one was a bit shorter