JANE:Heal Me 💔

Another Gideon?

Jane's pov

Four weeks and fifteen hours later after that night,my husband is treating me like I no longer exist and to think that I was falling in love with Ben.My heart keeps aching by the way Ben's snobs and ignore me these days but I did rather die than show any weakness to another Gideon.I'm done letting love rule my life,my head is in charge now,so I act like I didn't care, like my heart wasn't breaking, like I didn't cry in the shower the next morning when I woke to him dressing up for work and not even acknowledging my greeting.A month after we had sex,Ben acted like I didn't exist.

Sighing

"That will be the end of today's lesson, thanks for watching and don't forget to click on the like button and subscribe".I switched off the camera, heading straight to refrigerator to get a cup of the lemon juice I squeezed this morning.

I shouldn't have made egg loaves,I thought to myself.I have never been a fan of eggs,am kinda allergic to it but I can still manage to eat it sometimes without vomitting but these days...I can't stand the smell at all.Ever since that morning everything irritates me to be honest I'm always looking for a chance to snap at anybody or anything just like I did to Josephine when she called last week.Her fault for asking for details about my progress with my husband, none of her damn business.

Sighing

Fuck you Ben,I muttered miserable.I'm going shopping with the stupid card he gave me after we got married.I haven't used it before but I will now to soothe my heartache.

***
I couldn't do it,spend Ben's money I mean.I went out empty handed and came back home empty handed.I never thought a day would come I would admit this but today coming back into an empty house I just had to admit,how lonely I am... physically, emotionally and mentally.The worst part was how Ben made me fall for me and left me stranded,I was doing perfectly fine in my parent's house but he had to come along and ruin my life completely.I know I'm perfect but everything have gone through when it comes to love,I know one thing for sure...I don't deserve Gideon treated me like dirt and now Ben is acting like  I didn't exist but this time around,if I get to suffer for loving him then Ben will for not loving "I" is wife in return.

I'm done enduring shit for love.

I know Ben loves my cooking, since he  never fails to complement it when he comes back home to eat dinner,so henceforth no more cooking,no more cleaning after him,no sleeping in the same bed,I'm moving to the guest room,I'm sure he would loves to have me out of his hair.

***

I ordered pizza for myself for dinner,it been a while since I ate any, I'm always cooking.

I was just settling in my new room after eating dinner when I heard him call my name.

Jane!

I headed into the kitchen at a relaxed pace to see Ben closing the microwave.

I'm here,what do you want?I called out to get his attention since he was still searching for a non-existing dinner.

Oh uhm,hi.He turned to face me.

Hi.

Jane,I couldn't find anything in the microwave and I'm famished.I did be  lying if I said I didn't feel guilty for not making anything for him.

That's because I didn't make anything Ben,oh and I moved my things into the guest room,I'll be sleeping there henceforth.

And why will you do that.He asked looking confused.

Funny you ask me that Ben,cause I'm just trying to respect the boundary you seem to have set.I snapped feeling indignant about the whole thing

B-B-But I-I-I...

You don't have to say anything Ben,I breathed out heavily.Goodnight and check the freezer for some leftover if you're that hungry.I called out while heading back to my new room.

...

The next morning I wished I hadn't made the decision to sleep in a separate room.The bed was cold and I kept rolling over cause there was no warn body to keep me grounded so my night was fitful.I checked the time to see it was a little bit past 8, Ben should be ready for work by now but I have no plan on stepping out of this room until I hear the front gate opening.

Jane!I was startled out of my thoughts, when I heard the knock."It's me Ben,I just want you to know we're going for a office function as a couple later this evening,I'll come pick you up by 5 please be ready". Bye

Here I was thinking he was about to apologize and ask me to move back to our room."Bastard",I muttered underneath my breath.

Well,I guess I have a reason to go shopping for new clothes and shoes.
"Clothes"..."Hmmmm well he didn't say anything about a dressing code".

I was jittery from nerves.I went shopping and I got a white body con kinda reavling gown with a white cosert to wear underneath so my thighs we were kinda on display but you won't notice until you look closely.I bought a burgundy colored heels and purse and went to the saloon to style my hair,then applied a light makeup using a burgundy lipstick to match my purse and heels.I know I looked good but this is really not me.The heels,the reavling clothes even the makeup,I used all this just to spite Ben.
I was ready and waiting for Ben.He showed up just in time and gave me a once over before clearing his throat and asking me to go wait in the car that he needed to get something in our room.He didn't even complement me,to say I was furious would be an understatement...