JANE:Heal Me 💔

Agony

Jane's pov

I slipped off my shoes,as soon as I walked through the front door and slammed the door close,angry at myself and Ben but mostly myself for letting his words affect me that much.

"You have a penchant for trouble"

A bitter pill that's damn hard to swallow... "When did I turn into a woman that causes trouble?"I addressed the fridge as soon as I entered the kitchen.

Releasing the breath I was holding when I was met with silence.I opened the fridge and poured myself a cup of lemon juice,I squeezed this morning.I drank the whole content of the cup and headed towards the bedroom to get out of the tight fitted gown I had on just to spite Ben.The guy wasn't even moved at all, probably seen better wears on his slutty p.a and his girlfriends.

Speaking of p.a the stupid woman spilled her drink on the drama queen she was talking to and I had to take the blame for it!Even when she's not trying,she making my life miserable.

I turned on the lights when my new room that I'm probably never going to get used and reached for the zipper if my gown, when I felt the most unbearable pain in my stomach.I clutched unto my stomach as I slumped since my legs gave up on me and was lying on my back, writhing in excruciating pain.Moving was hard,I couldn't do anything but try to breath through the pain.I tried thinking about what I ate that could have caused me this much agony but I couldn't come up with anything.In fact I didn't eat anything except for the lemon juice I took just a while ago.

I didn't know how I had been on the floor but I couldn't help but notice how wet my gown was,I tried turning on my stomach and crawling away to a dry spot, thinking I had peed myself without knowing.I dragged myself away to a dry spot beside the night stand and turned around to rest my back and that was when I saw the pool of blood I left in my wake.

I started panicking and sobbing and with a renewed strength I tried getting out of my clothes though I was in pain but I couldn't reach the zipper so I resolved to pulling but it was of no use.

"Somebody please help me!"I screamed though I knew there was no one around to help me.

Anybody! Please help me!I sobbed on clutching onto my aching stomach hoping the pain will go away.

Blood was starting to pool beneath me again so I decided to maneuver a little and check in the night stand shelf ,I was resting on to see if I could get a scissor to cut through my gown maybe then I'll be relieved of this deathly pain coursing through me.

I opened the drawer with my blood stained hand but I could only come up with a razor blade, how it got there I didn't know but I went to work and pulled on my gown around my stomach area and then started cutting through the gown as fast as I could until I realised that the gown wasn't the problem but the corset I was wearing beneath it.

I couldn't help but whimper,when I saw the corset wrapping around me in a death grip but now I was too weak to cut it.

"Mummy, please help me,I croaked out feeling my tears and  phlegm drooling into the corner of lips.

"Ben!" Josephine! "Jacky!"Anybody!" "please help me!"I sobbed holding to my stomach with blood stained hands.My eyes were starting to close of there own accord and I couldn't help but think how pathetic it was for me to die the same day I had a fight with the man I love and getting angry over silly things and didn't bring my purse with me into the room so I could at least call for help...

Now Ben won't even know how much I love him,my family won't even know  that I care even though I act like didn't.I pushed everybody away all because I didn't want to get hurt again and what did I gain from it?

"Nothing"I whispered before succumbing to darkness...