JANE:Heal Me 💔

Trust

Ben's pov

I was thirsty so I got up from bed and went to the kitchen to drink water,Jane still sleeping.I drank a glass of water and headed back into the bedroom.I got into bed and try maneuvering the covers in order not to wake Jane up.

I tried going back to sleep,but I couldn't seem to find a comfortable position to lay my head.I blame my restless libido for this,I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up.

Sighs

I reached out for my wrist watch that was on the night stand but since Jane was sleeping by the side with the night stand and I was too lazy to stand.I tried reaching for it by stretching my hands but I still couldn't reach it so I moved more closer to Jane side of the bed and leading to half of my body resting on hers...

And before I knew it,I felt her tense up and started screaming without even taking the cover off her face and then I made the mistake of touching her trying to calm her down, immediately she threw a punch catching me by the jaw, she kept on screaming begging me to stop,I should be the one begging her to stop.
I tried calling her name but then she kicked me off the bed,I'm confused.

Did she think I was about to... Realization dawned on me.I looked at the woman on the bed writhing as if she was in pain,the covers were long gone but her eyes were still shut.

Jane!I shouted.She was still begging,I couldn't touch cause that seems to set her off the more.

Jane!you need to open your eyes,I continue shouting.She was shaking her head now so I knew I was getting to her.

Yes,Jane open your eyes,trust me please,I said quietly.

She laid stiffly for a while before she finally opened her eyes,she looked around and finally looked at me and seems to realise where she was...then she started crying.

Oh my world... someone hurt her pretty bad that was the only reasonable conclusion I could come to,the lack of emotions ,the evasion to touching,it all makes sense now.

I have never felt this helpless in my life.I didn't know what to do to make her feel better,so I knelt by the bedside watching my wife crying.

I'm sorry, I said in a shaky voice.She has stopped crying now but she still looked broken,so far that was the emotion she's showing.I wish I could make her feel better.

She looked up,you have nothing to be sorry for,she replied.

Please don't do that,it was my fault this happened,I'm so sorry Jane.

It's ok really,am ok now.

No you are not ok! Please don't hide from me Jane.

Am ok Ben,I have to be,she sobbed.

I took her hands in mine tentatively,she tensed up but didn't withdraw.

Jane, we're married now and I understand if this is hard for you to trust me but I want you to know I'm here for you no matter what.We are in this together Jane, please just let me in, ok? She looked so sad.

I can't Ben,she sniffled taking back her hand.

I took hold of her hands again.Jane look at me,I demanded.I want you to know I'll always be here for you no matter what ok?

She looked at me for a while before replying to a quiet ok.

I dropped her hands which she immediately wrapped around herself as I stood up to get her a cup of water.

I walked into the kitchen and bit my fist to stop myself from screaming out.I was so angry,the idea that someone had hurt her like that or even thought of hurting her at all infuriated me.

I tried calming down and with shaky hands got her a cup of water and headed back into the room.

She took the cup and muttered a thank you while sitting up in the bed.I watched her drink the whole thing without stopping until it was empty,she seems to do that a lot,drinking without stopping.

She handed the cup back to me thanking me again and I returned it to   the kitchen.I came back in to see her still sitting up so I took my phone and told her I'll be in the next room,if she needs anything.

As sad as it was,she visibly relaxed and got under the covers, covering herself up without the exception of her head this time.

I walked out the room into the other room,thinking  about how I seem to be falling in love with Jane Moore in a short period of time...