questions that keep me awake at night

what is this madness?? happiness???

you read right people for the first time in quite possibly her entire existence phoebe is truly and completely happy. does it seem ludicrous? yes. Do I want to disappear back into my closet of black and not surface until I am once again a ball of gloom? it may seem crazy but no. I like this. Because I simply adore leaving my phone at night, not just to a 'goodnight' but to a 'talk tomorrow' 

and you cannot possibly fathom how much i simply seem to love the sensation of blushing. i have never been someone who blushes but now it seems to be happening all the time and i really truly enjoy it. the heat rushing to my cheeks is a warm reminder that i care. 

so yes, i do believe it quite possible, that one boy has broken my shield and that i, the most depressing person to exist, am actually, unequivocally, happy.