Waste it on me (BTS Jungkook x Reader)

Chapter 20: I love you

Jungkook's point of view

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1 year ago

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Knock knock knock

I walk into your apartment without waiting for you to get the door. The rather gray apartment looks duller than usual, as if it was barely used. It felt odd not seeing even a single dish in the sink or your usual array of blankets from your room scattered in the living room. You were a clean person, but not this clean. It was almost as if you barely lived here anymore.

"Hello?" I called. Your apartment was small, so it was easy to see that you were in the closed off bedroom. I knock on the door, but you don't respond. The door slowly creaks open when I knock a second time and I peak my head in. There you were, under a massive pile of blankets, sleeping soundly. I quietly walked over to your form, my mind unsure if I should wake you or not. When I get closer to your face, I notice how red and puffy your eyes were, clearly from crying. I sigh at the sight, it had been a week since the break up with you and Jackson and I still didn't understand why you put on such a strong persona.

I shake you gently "Hey, wake up, let's go get you some dinner" you stir in your sleep but blink a few times seeing me in your home "Come on, I'll buy you food"

"Food?" you whisper sleepily, yawning and stretching "I guess I shouldn't sleep all day, give me 10 minutes to get ready"

I sit uncomfortably on your couch, not wanting to ruin the perfectly placed pillows and cushions. I sigh realizing that you were cleaning to distract yourself. How could this happen to you? I've known you for years and you were truly an amazing human. It wasn't because of your looks; you would never have to buy yourself a drink if you went out. It wasn't your personality that was extremely caring and kind. Jackson and you seemed like the perfect relationship, what could have gone wrong? My curiosity was taking over me, wanting to know more about your past relationship and how you were feeling "Uh- about Jackso-"

"Oh what about him? You don't have to buy me food if its because of the breakup" you snap, clearly not wanting to talk about him.

I shift uncomfortably "No you bought last time so I'm making up for it"

You roll your eyes and grab your wallet from the kitchen "Whatever you say" you shrug pushing the subject away "You don't need to worry about me, I broke up with- uh- I broke up with him because I needed to focus on school."

I picked up on the faint shaking in your voice and decided to suppress my curiosity, it wasn't worth you having to relive a terrible experience. Your breakup was something I just couldn't wrap my head around. Wouldn't you want everyone to know what a terrible thing he did to you? I clenched my fist and closed my eyes, trying to suppress my anger. Everyone would see him as a terrible person. He is.

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9 months ago

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We sat in the bed of Jin's truck, enjoying the first warm night under the stars since the winter ended.

"Yah! stop throwing grapes at me!" Jin snapped at you, pelting a few back at your face as you giggle. "Don't be all mad just because I beat you" he waves his portable game console in the air and you sulk down looking at yours.

"I don't like losing" you mumble, wrapping yourself in a blanket more.

"I'll be right back, I need to pee" Jin announces which makes me scoff and you let out a disgusted look. Before you can make fun of him, he jumps out of the bed of the truck and runs off awkwardly into the woods.