"Anthony , Anthony Reeves"

Part 6

My POV
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I started to write in my new diary.... ' update..it's been a week since Anthony's been in .... jail... he called me last night .. he'll be out tomorrow ..I missed his voice ... smile , laugh... everything ... waking up to him kissing me ... I swear I'm in love dude ...he's my world ... even tho I still hate him.'
  I called Anthony's house to let them know that he will be back tomorrow ... I kinda let them have the week off ... but Anthony doesn't know and he won't know .... I started to stretch and get out of bed as I felt a pair of hands grab me from behind ... it was payton
  "Goodmorning ....you're so fucking ugly." He smiled at me jokingly. I smile back as I punch him in the balls.
  "Goodmorning small dick." I smiled laughing .. as he yelled in pain ... he got up and tackled me... I just laughed as I hurt him again...
"Weak son!!!!" I yelled running around the house ... and I accidently ran into Jaden ...
"I-I'm so sorry.." I said as he moved ... I flinched ...
"Did ty really think I was gonna hit yoy?" He frowned ...
"Uhm.." I just looked down ... and I felt him hug me for a good second then let go...
"I would never." He said fixing me some chocolate milk... which I got extremely happy over Bc that's like my favorite thing ever ... I swear ... ugh chocolate milk... I smiled and thanked him...
"You suck!" Payton yelled out of breathe
"Uhm you swallow hun." I smiled ... as he tried to tackle me again.. I swear this kid is annoying... as we finished I heard my phone go off ... it was a call... I answered it... surprised
"Hey baby girl." I heard giggles
"Uhm who is this?"
"Ryan?" He smiled
"Wth are you doing with my number ?"
"Well someone gave it to me...can we finish what I started baby?"
I just hung up... and face planted the counter ... and sat there tearing up... why all of this bullshit man? Why me!
"Was This the house that had a party like a few weeks ago?.." I whispered hoping it wasn't ...
  "No, thats was Jayden's house ... but I'm having one tonight !" Payton smiled .
"I-I can't go...sorry..." I looked down
Payton just gave me a funny look. "What do you mean you can't go? Bc of that call? What's they even say? Kimberly don't bail on me!!!! Cmonnnnnn!" He whined gibing me puppy eyes .
"Payton I really can't tho." I pretended I couldn't but that wasn't stopping him.
"Nope your gonna go no matter what.. Bc you're a friend and I'm not gonan let you be bored and just lay around wishing you were with Anthony's ugly ass." He yelled
"Heyyy! Don't say that abt him... you're the ugly one dude ... and FINE I hate you."
"Awww yay!!!" He yelled hugging me ...very tightly . Jaden and chase both decided to hug me too ... making it tighter .... "ok ok guys I think your breaking my back here..." after they let go I gasped and just stretched . It felt good to be let go of from the grip they had lol...
After a couple hours of doing nothing ... we decided to go to the mall... I bought every little thing that reminded me of anthony ... Bc I missed him... I was so stupid for leaving him like that and worrying him.. while walking around I took a few big hits from my juul that had a good bit of bud in it... and I could feel it after a while ...
The Guys kept asking if I was ok... and I just agreed to make them shut up... then I said I was gonna go to the rest room... as I got in there I felt someone cover my mouth and tie something over it ... then ripped my shorts ... I forcefully turned to see Ryan ...
"I said I wanted to finish what we started ..." he laughed shoving his fingers inside of me ... with my muffled screams ... they were to low for anyone to hear . He bent me over the toilet .... and just started to thrust... I screamed in pain . Trying so hard to get out of his grip.. but nothing helped ... he just kept going ... nothing was pleasurable for me ... it was just pain .... after abt 10 minutes ... he finally stopped and just ran out ... I untied my mouth ... and I just fell down ...my legs and waist numb ... not knowing what to do...
My shorts were completely ripped so all I had was a shirt on .. but it wasn't long enough to cover ...
"J-j-jaden... uhm.. c-can you bring me...some sh..... some shorts... mine are ripped..." I cried softly
"Kimberly are you ok? What's wrong?"
I just hung up.. after a couple seconds of waiting ... he they all ran in the girls restroom.. to see me on the floor ... I tried my hardest to pick myself up but I couldn't ... they grabbed me .... but I pulled away ... and I pulled myself up slowly ... my legs trembled as I slid my shorts on ...
"G-Get me out of here... please." I screamed ... I couldn't walk ... so Jaden just picked me up.. and we got out of there fast ... as we got in the vehicle ... I just felt numb and I didn't have any emotions...
"Kimberly what happened ? I need to know what happened !" They kept asking me ..
I still had no emotion but I finally broke ...
"I was raped .. that guy on the phone this morning was my ex .. he raped me . I-I tried so hard but I couldn't get him off of me ." I just said breaking down .. leaning on Payton....
"I remembered that I still have my old phone .. maybe he tracked me down..." I said busting it to pieces ... "I -I just wanna go home.." I whispered ....
After a couple hours they finally pushed me into calling the police ... I did so.. I went up to the police station and explained everything ... after that they made me look at all the men ... to show who it was ... I looked at the first one to see that it wasn't him... the second one ... wait ... Anthony !
"Anthony ?" I yelled
"He can't hear you.." the man said
"Oh uhmmm... oh... he's number 3..." I whispered trying not to cry... Anthony finally looked my way..
I could hear him softly whispering my name.. then he freaked out thinking of something wrong .... it was visiting hours ... maybe I could see him..
"Could I visit Antony? 5 minutes that all I'm asking.. plz idc if he comes home tomorrow I need to see him .... now." I begged and begged til he finally let me ... as I walked into the cell I hugged him tightly .. he hugged back ..
"I fucking missed you kimberly ... what are you doing here ? Why were you seeing us ? What happened ?" He freaked out .
"Uhm... uh. Anthony ... I'm sorry.. uhm.. remember that night we met with that guy that hurt me ?.." I looked down ...
"Wtf did he do? Oh he's dead I swear to god man." He jumped up punching the wall..
"No no no it's nothing that bad .. he just uhm...." I rubbed he back of my neck
"He just what?" He asked scared
"Me and he guys were At the mall and uhm I had to use the restroom and uhm.. he uh...I don't wanna -.."
"What did he do kimberly !" He said which scared me Bc of how loud he got ...
"He .. he raped me.." I screamed .. getting mad that it happened and I needed Anthony .. I just needed to see him...
"HE WHAT?" He said getting up and he caught the guy looking ...
"You asshole wtf is your problem don't even come around her again or I swear I swear l kill you man.!!!!" He screamed hitting the metal bars ..... and he just fell.. sittings nd crying ...
"Baby it's not your fault Anthony .. you couldn't have done anything to stop it ..."
"Yes I could .. if I didn't get drunk and I didn't get arrested I'd be by your side ... all this time ... happy and you wouldn't have gotten...." he almost threw up at the word.
"No no it's fine ... I'm fine ... I just needed to see you Anthony that's all..."
"Alright times up!" The man said
Anthony grabs me and kisses me .. gripping me tightly ... I cried as he did so... I did the same back ..
"I love you Anthony Reeves..." I whispered .. "I'll see you tomorrow." I waved and just ran to the car ... it really hurt him... I hurt him ... he's not ok... his bruises , cuts ... he's sad Bc of me.. I did this to him... I cried thinking as they asked what was wrong ...
"I saw Anthony ... he's not ok... I needa get him out as soon as possible .. he's miserable in there... he looked so bad . Liek he Hadn't eaten in days or anything ... he's terrible Payton!" I cried ... "and it's all my fault."
He hugged me as We drove off to head back to his house... I ran to the bathroom and I just sat at the bottom of the tub ... turned the hot water on in he shower head . Grabbed the nearest sharp item which was a razor ... I broke it and I just ... I couldn't stop .... my thighs ... arms .. stomach .. wrists .. everything is my fault ... maybe I'm not good enough .... I tried to ... but all I wanted to do was cut deeper .. and deeper .. til I got to the point where he bathtub was filled with red colored water .. I screamed and cried ...
  "Why me? Why is it always me?" I threw my head back ... and I did one more deep cut on my vein on my wrists... each side ... I heard someone knocking on the door .... it was payton ...
  "Hey are you ok in there ? I thought I heard screaming?" He yelled .
  I just ignored him... after a while of feeling funny .. I got weak ... I couldn't move .. I couldn't lift my body up.. I was too weak to even lay there ... I started to see black foggy stuff .. then I heard someone yelling at me and grabbing me ... but it was tunneled .. echoed .. I couldn't really hear them ...
 

  "Please help us ... my address is ........, hurry.. I don't think she's gonna make it ...
  Was the last thing I heard before it went completely blank..