Stuck between should I or should I NOT

Different

Taylor

The next day I woke up in our same nasty ass twin size bed. "mama said let this nigga help us. ok I did but why are we still living in this hell hole"? I thought as I begin to get out of bed. I walked over to the bathroom to get washed, I went over to the tub and tried to turn on the water but it wouldn't budge.

"Just as everything starts to get good you get back tracked". I said as I kissed my teeth and grabbed a baby wipe.

As I was stepping out the bathroom mama was getting out of bed.

Mama- good morning baby

Me- morin mama

Mama- wats wrong

Me- nothing and the water is out and I'm pretty sure the lights will be out by time we get home

Mama- I know baby that's what I wanted to talk to u about

Me- yes mama

Mama- Michael wants us to move, he has a better place for us to stay he asked yesterday and I wanted to talk to u about it first.

Me- I'll go any where besides this hell hole Im tired of living like this mama I don't deserve it I did nothing wrong

Mama- I know baby I know it's my fault. mama said coming over to me.

Mama- go get dress, you don't wanna be late for school.

I got up and walked to the bags from yesterday's shopping trip and picked out some light wash distressed jeans from hollister and a salt and pepper sweater.

I threw that on and went back in the bathroom to fix my bun. While I was standing in the mirror mama came in

Baby you are so beautiful.

No mama I'm fat, you see I said lifting up my sweater showing my mother my stomach

Baby that's nothing just a lil baby fat, that can be taken care of, but I talking about behind all of that I see a beautiful young lady.

Taylor

After mama left the bathroom I thought about wat she said and she was right all of this fat can be taken away so that's what ima ganna work on I said walking out the bathroom and over to put my new botties on I just got yesterday.

As me and mama was walking to the bus stop I decided to talk about my weight lost to her

Mama can I talk to you

Sure baby wats going on

Okay so I want to start working out and lose all of this "BABY FAT"

Ok we can start going to the gym and get you in shape since your going to be 16 soon.

I nodded, we walked up just in time because the bus was just coming up

Bye mama.

Taylor

In school people we're noticing me more and saying hi, I was shocked.

As I walked up to my locker I saw a female walking up in my direction

Patrica- hi ummm

Taylor- Taylor. i said telling her my name AGAIN

Patrica- yea right but was up this is my second time seeing you and u say u have been going here since forever right.

Taylor- yep

Patrica- why is that

Taylor- because I stay to myself I don't really fuck with niggas to much here

Patrica- I feel you but you seem real cool we should link up sometime, you know

Taylor- umm sure, when do u want to "LINK UP" I said with the air quotes around the last word

Patrica- today is good what are you doing after school

Taylor- umm I'm going to the gym with my mother sooo

Patrica- ok the one on Parker st.?

Taylor- yea I think that's the one why do u want to meet up there.

Patrica- yea we can do that see you after school

And she walked off. I closed my locker and walked off to my class. I was late for the first and the teacher didn't say anything to me so I walked to a empty seat that was right next to the sexiest boy in school (karon).

The end of the day

I was now walking out the doors of the school and as I was on my way I bumped into Patricia.

Patrica- umm hey my mom said I can just ride with u on the bus

Me- umm ok

We got on the bus and she actually sat next to me I was shocked, I always ride the bus alone. we just got to know each other on the next level.

When we got off the bus mama was waiting at the stop and looked at me in shock when she saw Patricia behind me.