Stuck between should I or should I NOT

The quiet ONE

As I sat in the back of the class waiting for the rest of the students to come in I sat day dreaming about how my life would be so much better If my mom would of finished college and not got knocked up by my dumb ass no good "father". as my day dream came to a end the "POPULAR" girls walked into my 4th period and set right in the front where all the boys could see them. no one really didn't picked on me but I could tell people talked about me as I came to my last thought about life miss Johnson had called on me. "Taylor" she yelled for the last time. "yes" I said with a attitude. " what is the answer to number 4"? with out wasteing any time I said the answer and went back to my day dreaming. I was a very smart kid I got all a's and tryed my hardest to try to get my mama and I out the projects. the bell rang I grabbed my homework and was the last one to leave out of class. I didn't really like to draw attention to myself so I'm the last one to leave class and always the first one to my next class, I never leave to go to the bathroom or anything. As I got in the cafe I raced to the lunch line and got my food and looked around to see if anyone was watching and take 3 bags of chips and dumped them in my bag and rushed to the bathroom to eat my lunch. as the day ended I was walking out the school doors when I bumped into some one and begged for them not to beat me the hell up and picked up my bag. as I got up I saw a sexy chick and my eyes widened she did a little laugh and said "no I'm sorry I should of been watching".I said "sorry" again and as I was walking off she stoped and and said "what's your name, are you new"? I shuck my head "no I'm not new I've been going here for to years this is my last, and I'm nobody and walked off". as I was walking off I could here her yell her name was Patricia and she's in 8th also. I walked to the bus, walked to the first seat and sat down and waited for it to start up and take me home. when the bus finally came to a stop I could see my mama waiting for me and I got a little happy but she didn't look so happy. I got off walked over to her and said "mama wats wrong" she looked peal and sick all she could get out was "baby I'm Sorry" I started to get worried and could see the people around us starting to watch now like we we're a movie. mama grabbed my hand and we begin to walk 3 blocks to home. walking there was quiet and just worried when we got home I needed answers. yea I was only 14 but I understood and was a very smart girl I've been threw to much to not understand. mama begin to speak " baby we've been evicted we have to leave by Thursday I begged the man to let us stay to more days till I could figure something out. she begin to cry and all I could do was cry along with her and hold her in my arms. we cried all night untill it was time for her to go to work. She looked over at me and a little smile came over her face "baby there's no more time to be sad we've been sad all I've life's it's time to grow and move on" "but mama" is all I said before she said "shhhh there's no buts we have to keep moving now let's pray". every night befor my mama went out to work we pray we prayed hard and a lot. " dear Heavenly Father please watch over Taylor while I'm out working and no one is home with her watch over me while I'm out trying my hardest and doing what I can do to keep us alive lord Jesus please help us find a way and a home befor we get kicked out please lord we need you and we're tired of sleeping on the streets in Jeaus name we pray Amen". We both shared a Amen and mama wiped her last tear and we rose off the floor.