My Warrior

Chapter 8

I kept smiling all through dinner and everyone kept asking why. Of course I wouldn't tell them what happened so I just lied saying it was because of how delicious the baumkuchen was. When we were all done we headed back to the dorms and just as I was about to go in I feel someone grab the collar of my shirt and when I turned around I saw it was Sasha who dragged to a corner.
"Alright spit it out"
"Spit what out?"
"I know something happended between you and Bertholdt?"
"I uh..well..um..we...talked"
"Uh huh, why should I believe that? I mean good for you-"
"We kissed." I say as I feel the heat in my cheeks rise and I look down.
"Y-you two what? Holy shit! What do you plan on doing now?"
"I-I don't know."
"Tell him how you feel."
"What?"
"You heard me. Tell him how you feel."
"Sasha I don't think that's a good idea."
"And why not?"
"Sasha we may have kissed but that's just it and-"
Next thing I know is Sasha slapping me.
I touch my face and look at her.
"You are being ridiculous!"
"How? Sasha either one of us could die and-"
"EXACTLY! If there's even the slightest chance you can be together but it keep it low then so be it! And since we have a free day tommorow you tell him how you feel!"
"But-"
"Should I do it?"
"N-no, I'll do it."
"Good now let's go to bed." Sasha said.
The next morning I woke up I head on to the mess hall all nervous. I had to find a way to talk to Bertholdt privately without Reiner being there. When I went in I didn't see either Bertholdt or Reiner. I saw Eren, Mikasa, Armin, and Jean.
"Hey Y/N! Come sit with us!" Eren said.
"Oh um-sure." I say.
While we were eating everyone was talking about what they were going to do. Armin wanted to show everyone once more a book that apparently he has had since he was little that talked about the outside world. He would always talk about something called the ocean. Apparently it's a big body of water and apparently it is actually salty. Merchants can try and attempt to collect it all but they wouldn't be able to.
I actually really enjoyed hearing Armin talking about it. I remember one time for his birthday I drew him of what I'd imagine how the ocean would look like and he liked it.
"Hey Y/N want to hang out with us after breakfast so we can talk more about the ocean?" Armin asked.
"I-I actually have to take care of a private matter. Maybe you could tell me when I'm done." I say as I got up and dumped my tray.
I had asked some of the boys if they have seen Reiner or Bertholdt and I had no luck in one of them saying where they were until one of them told me he heard they were going into town.
I head into town and look everywhere. Just as I was about to continue I came across a corner and I heard Reiner's voice and he sounded angry for some reason.
"ARE YOU INSANE BERTHOLDT MAN? HAVE YOU STARTED SHOWING SYMPATHY FOR THIS DEVILED RACE?"
Deviled race?
"Reiner you're no different than I am. We are both monsters. We both feel for someone who we know we can't be with cause of our mission. And what does it matter what we do? Even if we complete this stupid mission of ours as warriors do you really think this cycle of hatred will end? Sure we all save our families but it will still continue and you know it."
"Look man I'm just trying to help you I mean what are going to do when everyone finds out the truth about us? Have you even taken into consideration how Y/N is going to react to you being the Colossal Titan?"
What?
I've never seen Reiner this angry. I feel sorry for the dude. Between him and Bertholdt he's the one whose probably been more traumatized by all that has happened that is causing him to say things like that.
"She is going to hate us both since we are the cause of death of her family and thousands and thousands of people."
At this point I had tears streaming down my face.
No! I refuse to believe this. Maybe my ears need to get fixed or rather cleaned.
Yeah let's do that. I had planned on seeing the Scouts nurse and just as I was about to start walking I had forgot that there was a pile of twigs and I stepped on it making a sound.
Shit! Oh no!