Right now I'm in a moment in my life where I am moving forward and trying my best to be somebody. Whereas before I didn't know if I wanted to be anyone to anybody, whether my life would amount to anything, and if I just wanted to exist. It's actually quite like that except now I want to fight to exist for the people that matter in my life. I'm struggling with being the successful person I know I am capable of being, or becoming the person that want to give up and wither away. I know my parents did not raise this way, And that they would always try my hardest. But I've been trying my hardest so difficult to want to keep going. Who do I want to be?, who do I want to become?, what is my purpose?
I don't always feel like this, unfulfilled and empty. It's only when I'm alone, and then I start to think that I'm a bother that he wants me around. I don't think this way when I have people around. With others, I am a positive thing and I work so hard. Then I come home, and I feel so alone. I start to become afraid of how much I do. I know I can do everything I put my mind to, but it's only when I'm lonely that I doubt myself. I'm in college now and I love the freedom but I don't have any security I am but I shall make it be.
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Summing it up
AlteleI really have a lot of words stuck in my head. I rant and talk to many people about many controversial issues,(personal, political, random, etc. )and how I feel about certain topics. When I have no one to talk to, I feel the need to put my thoughts...
