MONSTERS (Z. M)

Chapter 16

Cherry

"I am sorry honey, I know that I was a monster when I  found out about you and Justin. I should not have reacted the way I did." his voice cracked as he stopped to catch his breath.

He was really putting on  quite the show, I mean crying like he even meant it. 

Wait, but what if he really did love my mum? What if I had misjudged him all along ?

But what if not? "Dad I am so sorry." I run into his arms ignoring the second part of my worries, the part that kept nagging me and reminding me that my dad was and would always be a Lia, so I should not by all means fall for his little crocodile tears.

"Oh honey," He sobbed harder then I felt a kiss on my really nicely -smelling hair. Then I felt it again, he poured kisses all over my hair while he kept crushing my bones in a hug.

"Dad...I.. I said I was sorry, not 'squash-me- to- death." I whispered and sure enough,he let loose of his hold around me, while laughing mirthfully.

"Honey you do not have to say sorry. I did all these, please you have to forgive me. I..." I watched him lower himself until he was on his knees. "I can't take you being mad at me anymore... I am so, very sorry ." He said then planted a light kiss on the both of hands that he had been holding the entire time.

I nodded okay hugging back with all the energy I had. "I forgive you dad." I smiled to return the sweet smile that he was giving me at the moment. God, he looked happy and actually a year younger that his stuck up self. 

"Thank you, you thank you baby." I reached out and wiped the stream of tears of joy that had been rolling down his cheeks. I prided myself with the fact that I was able to make a monster like him happy. I know they say that fight fire with fire, but there was no way I was about to sell myself to the devil to become a monster like him. Besides, if my mum really wanted Zayn for me, I would do it.

"I will do it!" I blurted out. I started shaking from the crazyness of what I had said. "I am gonna marry Zayn."I said spontaneously like I had thought about it for edges, when in fact, I hadn't thought about anything in months.

"Are you sure?what about Justin ?"dad asked concerned. Fake one of course, he already made it clear that no matter what, he was never going to  accept Jason for me.

"He doesn't want me anymore!" That came out as an accusation. I was a little bit blaming Justin for my poor decisions. "I have tried, I have gone to his office but he always kicked me out even without showing his face.I am tired of being sad papa, I am tired of being rejected. I... I also... I want to be happy ."I snorted on his official shirt. Have I ever mentioned that my dad had never worn anything that was not a suit.I even thought he slept in one.

"You have g...what do you mean by you have go... Never mind." he sighed with resignation.

" I am sorry daddy. But every time I left the house to go to the mausoleum, I never made it there. "I cried feeling evil and stupid.

" It is okay baby. "We cried together , I snorted on his shirt over and over.I had alot to cry about, my lost love My continuous rebellion against my own mother and I cried over my dead baby, that I had abandoned for something that wasn't even worth it. I sighed deeply and made a disicion to be with Zayn and forget my love.

I knew till death swept me from the face of the earth, that I was still going to love Justin and my dead  son.They would forever have a special place in my heart.

For the next few days, I was being myself again or at least I tried to be. I still kept sneaking out of the house to go and beg Justin. And every single time after it went south, I would come home,  just stay in my room and weep for hours.