MONSTERS (Z. M)

Chapter 14

Justin

"Justin, sons, you need to go to sleep, Henry is peacefully asleep, his fever is down already. " Her tone was so assuring and I swear I wanted to believe her. But I couldn't . I hadn't slept in days, I hadn't gone to the foundation for a week and just thinking of how badly I left those kids and venessa, really tormented me. I was a huge mess at the moment.

"El, I cannot sleep. What if he did not actually get better and he sleeps like this and not wake up?"

"Enough with the worryness." she grabbed my arm and pulled me up from the Chair I was previously sleeping in. "You are going to have a little sleep I will stay up and watch the two of you, all night long." She did not give me any room to object,  so I plopped on my bed just next to my son's crib.

I only stayed for a second, then shot up like an idea crept into my mind. "I am a pathetic excuse of a man, aren't I?" she sighed and shook her head from left to right. Obviously tired of my bitching. Day in day out, I had been lamenting about Cherry  like a little kid.

"You did not talk to her? Again,? Come on son. "She had begged me to talk to Cherry ever since she found out that she went to the clinic to see me.It was a week ago, when I had taken Jason there for a checkup. I had just done with the test, when my assistant informed me her presence . I was shocked to know that she even remembered me, given that she abandoned the both of us exactly one year two months and six days ago, when she sent her monster of a dad to drop my son like he was toxic.

I was angry with her. I never expected her to be that ruthless. I thought she was kind but I was extremely upset with myself when my heart jumped a bit at  a glimpse of her extremely short hair, from the view of my window. It was crazy how she aroused a very deep desire in me, you know the kind that I thought I had forgotten about.

"I know I am stupid. I just saw the love of my life begging me from the outside but instead of actually going to talk to her, I froze from all the anger I feel from the inside. She left us and now she just want to weasel her way back into our lives? Where was she when Jason and I needed her? Where was she when my son cried for her, I cried for her, I longed for her you know, just for her presence when the baby could cry and I had absolutely know idea what to do. She has no right to come to my work place thank God no one in that family knows where this place is "

I sighed at the thought of Henry. I was not fare to him. He was my only best friend apart from Jason. But, I had not talked to him ever since I was released from the cage they had me locked in, for six months. I didn't know how to face him especially after I literally gave up his sister. I should have tried or at least died trying to find her.

They just offered me a deal and I took it and ran like a Coward.

" You are alot of things but stupid? Nah. Whatever you did, I believe was for everyone's good but most especially hers." .

"I should have fought for her, you know, but instead, I just ran. This is all my fault. Karma is catching up with me for not sticking by her." a tear streamed down  my cheeks as I strengthened my hold on Jason's crib.

"No. Do not start with that again, You are an amazing dad. You are a badass dad. You know you are my role model I..." She paused and went through her phone quickly typing away. She was somewhat in a habit of doing that, even when she went to the park, she would use a different phone to chat.

I did not mind because to be honest, she had done things for me no one else had. For the last one year, she had been by my side taking care of Jason like we were real family.

"Do you think I  am facing my karma, I mean if I had stuck with her, she would have been here with me. " I asked ignoring the phone. I think she was arguing with a boyfriend or something. Speaking of which, I had never seen her not so busy.

"Nonsense, child." she came and sat next to me, dropping the phone in her pocket. "Justin I am serious. You are  great guy, the most hardworking, coolest single dad I have ever made. You have raised that baby from day one, you run a huge foundation alone and most importantly, you run a successful clinic. You are a super man." why then did I feel like crap, why did I feel miserable? I was stupid too, you know. I kept loving the one person that had managed to shatter my heart into tiny pieces. I moved to that new apartment so that the president and his obnoxious daughter would not find us and yet I kept wanting her.

"But I feel stupid."

"That might be true, I mean you keep thinking that you are the reason your son caught a cold."

"You are dodging again. I meant for loving the president's daughter." of course that is what she was doing. She couldn't even believe that Jason was a son I had with the president. Every time I told her about it, she changed the subject or asked if that thing happened in that lifetime.

Just when I thought that we were done, "I think you are great for still loving her. And before you know why she did what she did, you might wanna tone down on the hate, a little." that was new.
She had never commented on that topic. And that day, she behaved like a mama. "You have to go to sleep, I am gonna watch him tonight. I was tired so I just laid there, next to my little sunshine.

" Good night El. "she didn't say it back but her smile said it all.
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"J... come to daddy."he giggled as he crawled to get away from me." You want  a chase? "I sprawled on my stomach my face coming close to his." gotcha! "he laughed really loudly and I found myself laughing too. My heart beat with joy seeing him all happy again. For a moment I forgot what that week of terror was, when he couldn't giggle, when he constantly ran a high fever, he could not even eat. For a moment there I almost died. The thought of losing my son left me broken. I couldn't sleep and as a result, I did a lousy job helping him.

Untill I pulled my shit together and went to see Cherry.Even though it cut me like a knife to see her with that Zayn, I totally realized that I was wrong about her and she and Zayn deserved each each. She looked happy getting in his car like a princess she was.

"Dada" I shut my eyes enjoying that voice. Ever since he started calling me that? I felt my heart swell with happiness. My son didn't need his snooty mother and her money to be a good person. we were just perfect.

I opened my eyes and he had already crawled away. I attempted going to him and he screeched trying to run.my intercome beeped and silvias voice reminded about the meeting I was to have in an hour.

I took Jason and changed his diaper. We werw going to the meeting as we always did for the past few days . Ever since he got sick, I never left him at hhadome. I had trained him well and he could just crawl around the board room as I went on with the meeting.

After changing his diaper,I fed him his cereals.he ate everything playing with my phone.I cleaned him and carried him off to the board room.

The meeting ended in about thirty minutes, my little champ was already asleep on the thick carpeted floor.I carried him to my office and laid him gently on his crib.I took that time to go through my work and thinking about my lost love.

"Mr. Beiber ?miss Green is here to see you. My heaty stopped beating for ten minutes but not because of shock or anything, just the wonderment of what she thought she was and well, maybe a little confusion, what was she doing there. I had not seen her before, why would she think that I could waste my second seeing her?after I had raised henry into I wonderful kid after I had just thought about her?

If she thought that just because she was the first daughter she was just going to behave like she owned the world she was wrong.Jason was mine and I did not intend on sharing him with her.she lost the rights when she abandoned us.

"Tell her to go away and tell security to never let her inside my building if they want to keep their jobs."I was blazing with rage.she couldn't do taht to me. She couldn't just show up when she wasn't done with zayn. No

" But she is the first daughter. "

" Am I supposed to care about that? Listen, if you want to keep your job, I suggest you do as you are told and not remind me of titles."

"O'kay sir." He responded curiously. She was not just the firstady, she was my first and greatest and only love. She was my first heartbreak and probably the only woman I was ever going to love in this life time