MONSTERS (Z. M)

Chapter 39

Cherry

"Are you scared? " I turned to the voice and I met Lizzy, walking further into my room. I didn't even notice her open the door because I was busy staring at oblivion through the huge window. My mind was messed up with thoughts about a particular man.

It had been three weeks since I escaped from Zayn but I still couldn't shake the fear of what he was going to do to me once he found. I couldn't stop the fear of someone I loved getting killed because of me and it was torturous.

I had seen on TV how he had turned the country upside down, He had burned hospitals and health centers to the ground in search of Harry and I. The idiot's mind couldn't think beyond hospitals. He thought that the only place we could hide in, was a hospital. Another  advantage we had, was the fact that he didn't know my family was still alive.

I know I shouldn't have had to lock myself in the bedroom every day, I should have been out there playing football with all the rest. Every one had told me about how safe that house was, Yet, I was still scared of him. He marked me for good. I couldn't even have a peaceful night without him creeping in and ruining everything .

I always woke up to him choking me while smirking. I had had nightmares for days before Justin recommended a shrink. But things just got worse. I even had those nightmares during the day now.

So when she asked if I was scared, I took a deep breath weighing everything,

" No, "  and my voice came out shaky. "I am more than terrified. If he finds me, or any of you guys,... I don't want to think about it. " That was me being totally honest.

He was growing powerful by the day. Especially now that he had proclaimed himself the president and, murdered everyone that opposed him. I was a little relieved when Henry managed to close the foundation and relocate everybody. I had no idea where he kept the children. But as long as they were safe, I was glad ." Aren't you? I mean know what he did to you."  Like someone had thrown her dirty secret to the public, she almost collapsed.

She recollected herself before walking toward my neatly made bed.

" You know?" she muttered. A fat tear rolled down her eyes even though she blinked constantly, to stop it.  "Harry saved me you know, I owe him my life and the baby's." What did she mean by that? I thought...  all along I thought that it was Harry's  and it turned out I was wrong. That could only mean that.... Oh my God!

I plopped on the bed exhausted by the thought. Just the idea that someone that I had grown to see as family, carrying that monster's baby scared the energy out of me. I remembered clearly, the first day that he forced himself on me, he had told me how he was with a woman,he even blamed me for his unfaithfulness. "is it zayn's?" I had to ask to be sure.

Her hands quickly covered her tummy protectively as she trembled with fear. She looked like she was about to pass out for real now, so, I quickly scurried off the bed and helped her on it. I kicked myself gor making her relive that torture and humiliation she must  had gone through. "I am sorry I asked that." I apologized once she was seated comfortably .

"No, you have the right to know. ." she said calmly. "I loved children and I was a sucker for their innocence despite the circumstances, Up until I became a some child's shrink. He was messed up... His dad messed him up. But then I learned that it wasn't his fault. His role model tamed him that way. So I was back to that whole love.... Oh shit! why am I telling you all that.
I love kids but if I conceived by that monster, God forgive me but I... I would kill myself ."

" I don't...what are you saying? "I was more confused this time, that wasn't a conversation, she mostly just blubbered things to herself, one minute convincing herself that hating Zayn's baby was justified and the second loving the baby and back to hating it. I was thoroughly lost ." I tried to stop him from touching me but he was just too strong. H-he he made me wear this... t-this red lacy underwear and he kept calling me Cherry over and over, and then after he was done, that freak folded the underwear neatly and kept in in a safe in his office. He treated me worse than an animal ." as she narrated disgusted by herself, I found myself reliving my past with him. Every stink eyes he gave me before, every Clouting I received for not getting naked at his command, and every bone in my body that he broke, everything played, in my head and I had no idea how emotionally I was crying, until She hugged me tightly.