[NCT IMAGINES / SCENARIOS]

lose you to love me! lucas <3

- its supposed to be angsty 🥴
its REALLY bad, but i had to post something so just wait for the good stuff to show up okay?
- 1:27 am
- another night without him.
- you haven't slept in the same bed with him in forever
- you missed it, yet you're still together
- he wasn't the same and you know what's been going on
- the lashouts out of nowhere, the smiling at his phone everytime you are together
- it was obvious
- the one night he came home with hickies
- till he didn't come back for a whole day or week
- "babe i'm going on a business trip next week, so i'm gonna be gone a while."
- lucas wasn't like that the first time you two met
- he was the sweet, gentle goofball who loved puppies and rapping and speaking loudly
- you two were so good together until it just,
- stopped.
- his "i'm sorry's" were becoming a frequent thing
- it happened almost everyday you saw eachother
- don't get me wrong, he still loves you
- but somethings are just—
- complicated.
- he loves you, yet goes with another girl almost everyday
- you're fed up.
- you're a bad bitch is what you like to remind yourself.
- so you start packing
- and then you start crying, because you realize that he put this upon himself
- he decided to throw away all the memories
- he decided to break your heart into a thousand pieces
- he decided to break the promises and all that
- he did it.
- "baby!? i'm home!"
- here he is. the man himself.
- why is he home early? i don't even know.
- "babe! i got the greatest—"
- his smile falters. he is sent into full panic mode.
- thoughts rapidly race around his mind, most importantly
- "baby, why are you packing?"
- your tears make him choke up
- "i can't do this anymore lucas. i-i-i can't"
-"what do you mean? what happened?"
- "lucas don't act like that."
- "act like what?"
- "ACT LIKE YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"
- "i-i-i guess you found it."
- you absolutley shocked.
- " not even an 'i'm sorry?' "
- "i-i don't know. you—"
- " was our 4 years nothing to you? was it!? i've done nothing but beat myself up for losing you to somebody else, and i cannot BELIEVE that i actually had to keep you to love me."
- he started tearing up while you continued...
- "i realized, that i needed to lose you in order to—
- to love me.
- "lucas, i'm sorry i wasn't enough for you, and i'm sorry that i...i have to say sorry even though i didn't do a damn thing!"
- "i'm— i'm sor-sorry!" he sobbed, while you kept going.
- "i'm sorry you got another girl to fill your pathetic needs and i'm sorry you never loved me."
- "y/n w-w-wait!"
- he tried to reach out to you but you too far away.
- he wanted to love you again
- he wanted to be with you and love you, yet he didn't fulfill that
- it was his fault
- he did lose you
- he did make you leave
- he did watch you go
- he did not make you stay
- it was all his fault, and yet he didn't do a damn thing
- "please, please p-please! don't leave!!"
- you looked at him.
- he sobbed on the floor with his hands over his knees
- you wanted to pity him, but you couldn't
- if you pitied him, you would crawl back right into his arms
- ' i'm not going back. '
- "goodbye lucas. i truly hope you learn from your mistakes."
- that was truly the last time you had ever seen him ever again.