Theory of Friendship that goes deeper than Love

Sweet and Deep

Gun was so excited he couldn't sleep and he was supposed to wake up early to catch a flight for yet another event they've had planned. Today's filming was busy, because they were shooting group scenes. There was a lot of goofing around and now he was exhausted, but couldn't fall asleep anyway. He's just finished the good night call with Off and he couldn't stop smiling. Recently, Papii was even more kind and caring to him and the talk they have had after the KhaiThird drunk kiss... He felt so messed up after this scene. So vulnerable after having felt Papii's warm lips so eager to kiss his and so frustrated, because he had to just stand there as Third with his eyes squeezed shut. Now, just thinking about it was making his heart speed up.
Today there wasn't even a single moment they were alone and it just made him think about the things Papii said. That he likes being close with Gun, that he likes Gun's touch, that he was afraid to make Gun do anything he might not want to do. Finally, he said that they can figure everything on their own, together... It felt like so many things shifted during the last half a year, but it was giving him such a good feeling and he felt so proud of the bond he has with Papii. It felt so good to know Papii is always there for him and he can be there for Papii too. Gun tried to be logical about whatever was happening. He kind of knew that best friends probably don't kiss that often, but when they exchanged the small pecks for the first time, nothing seemed more logical and right. Every time when they did that he felt somehow energised and he could tell it had a similar effect on Papii too. The older boy seemed more carefree nowadays and just a more joyous person in general. Even if Gun tried to be logical about everything it was useless, because when Papii said, just yesterday, that he basically wants them to kiss more, apart from the flutter in his stomach, Gun was, surprisingly, not freaking out.

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Gun was able to get some sleep before the flight after all. Now, they were unpacking in their hotel room in a companionable silence. The AC was on and the room felt chilly compared to the hot weather outside.
- My hands are cold. - Gun said rubbing his palms together and approaching the older boy who has just finished with his suitcase. Off smiled at the boy in front of him and inhaled sharply when he felt a pair of small hands sneaking under his shirt.
- They really are cold. - Off noted putting his hands on top of his own shirt where Gun's hands were. - Let me turn the air con down. - He said, but didn't make any move.
- No, just... Can I warm up like that for a minute? - the younger boy asked putting his head on Off's chest.
- Of course you can. - the older one answered softly and put one hand on the boy's mop of hair flattening it down a bit, so it won't tickle his chin. Gun relaxed against Off's body and rubbed Off's stomach with his palms. For the warmth... probably. They stayed like that for a longer moment that Off didn't want to end. The feeling of being cozy and connected was overwhelming but good.

- We're free to go down for di... nner. - the voice of Tawan reached their ears from the door. - Sorry, I should've knocked.
- It's okay. We're coming. - Off said removing his hand from Gun's head. Tay closed the door and quickly run down the stairs. Off felt a bit of a heat coming up to his face. He's just admitted to Tay recently that he has more than friendly feelings for Gun and now first thing that Tay walks in on is them hugging with Gun's hands under Off's shirt. That was a little embarrassing, but only because he had never been so willing to show affection as much as he is with the younger boy and he was shy being caught doing that.

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They were in bed together and Off's mind was getting blank. He felt like the proximity of Gun's body was making his own body tingle. Normally, he wouldn't be like that, because they shared bed more often than not, but now, after their conversation the other day, he knew that there's a possibility of them kissing and all he have to do is just initiate it... He was nervous. He tried to say something but he got shy, because of how excited that was making him and because he was sure Gun could tell he was being skittish.
Suddenly, Off pulled the covers over his head and the younger boy was confused. But then again, Papii has always been a bit weird in a good and kind of adorable way, so Gun decided to just investigate what the matter was.
- Papii, are you not feeling well? - Gun joined him diving underneath the covers too.
- Why?
- Your breath seems heavy. If it's hard to breath down here you shouldn't be with your head under the covers like that. - the younger boy tried to pull the blanket down, but Off stopped him, pulling the sheets even more above their heads and securing it there with his hand.
- No, I'm feeling very good right now, actually.
- Then, why are we hiding under the blanket? - Gun huffed confused by the older boy's behaviour.
- Because... - Off had no idea how to explain anything. He scooted closer and their foreheads collided. Gun yelped surprised, but Off didn't move away, just leaned even more in, not wanting to separate. Now not only their foreheads, but also the tips of their noses touched. Gun's heart sped up and he was on his way to panic, because they were suddenly so close in such an intimate setting. He didn't know how to read the situation and Off wasn't saying anything. It was pitch black under the covers where he insisted to stay. Gun moved nervously, but Off just moved even closer in order to not put any distance between them and not loose the contact their heads were making.
- Papii? What... are we doing? - Gun whispered and even if his voice couldn't be heard it was evident it was shaky.
- I put the blanket up, cause I'm so shy about this... - Off whispered back.
- What do you mean? You're making me shy now too.
- I want to... Um... You know, we talked about it. - Off mumbled and moved away an inch.
- Papii? Do you mean you want to kiss? - Gun asked lightly very fond of how careful and shy Off was about it.
- Uhum. - Off nodded.
- Okay... - Gun smiled - Um... And you mean like a f-full kiss? - his heart was racing now. Off nodded in confirmation once again. - And you want to do it for practice or...
- Forget about the stupid filming. - the older boy huffed and Gun removed the blanket in a swift motion smiling at the older boy. He could tell for sure that Off is being honest with him, because of how nervous he was.
- Okay. - the younger boy took a deep breath. - You can do it now. - he said, but Off hesitated. - Why you look so unsure, Papii?
- I don't want you to feel pressured if I'm the one to start. Like... Like in that scene we filmed.
- Okay. - Gun was a bit surprised, but the way Off was considerate like that made him feel warm inside, so he smiled reassuringly. - Let's kiss like we always do first. - Gun suggested and Off felt relieved. This was probably the best idea to start off with something familiar. So, he moved closer putting his arm around the smaller boy and raised his chin up exposing his neck for Gun. The boy smiled, because of course the neck kiss was something they would feel most comfortable with. He nuzzled his face there immediately, his heart fluttering, but the nerves kind of drifting away with it. It was nice for both of them, but Gun wanted to make sure Papii could feel that it's okay to proceed with more. So, he made the neck nuzzling just a bit more... sensual. He kissed Papii's pulse point slowly, sliding his lips across the jaw and crook of his neck, not loosing the contact with warm skin even for a second. Finally, he sucked right above the collarbone causing Off to sigh excitedly. The younger boy giggled.
- What? - Off frowned.
- Papii is so shy~ I can tell~ - Gun singsonged smiling at the older boy. - Usually, you would tip my chin up with your finger, so you can peck me already. - Gun complained humorously. - You are so freaking out right now.
- A little bit. - Off admitted - But you've never kissed my neck like... like that before.
- Are you feeling pressured? - Gun teased.
- No. - Off inhaled and exhaled slowly - Excited. - He said looking Gun in the eyes.
- Then, you know exactly how I feel right now. - the younger boy licked his lips with a mischievous glimmer on his face. Off swallowed, because if Gun felt like he was feeling right this moment, then it meant Gun really wanted it a lot. So, he decided to just go for it. He leaned down to kiss the boy's cheeks like he always did. Then he pecked his forehead and chin and Gun puckered his lips to remind him he is waiting for it. Off hesitated just a second, but finally pecked the full lips too. Once, twice and at the third time Gun grabbed the back of Off's head so their lips would not be separated anymore. The older boy sighed surprised and the slight movement made Gun's lower lip slide between Off's lips and probably on pure instinct they both started to nip at each other's mouths. It was so gentle, yet felt so good. Off stopped the kiss to ask how it was for Gun.
- Good. - Gun's eyelids seemed heavy. He didn't feel like opening them, because he wanted to get back to kissing. - But I would have to try some more to be sure how good. - he smiled coyly, his cheeks pink. Off bit his lips to stop from grinning.
- I see. Let's try it as long as you need then. - the older boy pulled Gun on top of his chest. The boy wriggled for a bit to make himself comfortable. He looked as sweet as the kisses tasted, with cheeks flushed and his hands on Off's chest. The older boy thought his heart would melt any moment now. Gun leaned down more confident than before. Off sighed excitedly feeling the soft mouth back on his, sliding between them so easily like they were meant to be there. It felt like a dream, but he was pretty sure he wasn't dreaming, because it also felt very real. So real, he could feel the simple touch on the lips with his whole body. He assumed they were more or less on the same page with this, because Gun cupped his cheek tenderly and started kissing more enthusiastically. It was by far the best thing he has ever felt and Gun was supposedly the one with no experience. Well, it turned out Off had never experienced something wonderful like that before.
- Gun. - Off said moving just an inch away, so they could look at each other. He wanted to say something, but he was at a loss of words. He just stared at the younger boy like he was the best thing in the world.
- What is it, Papii? Have you had enough?
- No! - Off answered quickly and grabbed the boy's shoulders like he wanted to pull him in for more kissing, but he swallowed and smiled closing his eyes. - It feels so good I don't know what to say.
- Then, there's no need to say anything. - Gun smiled back. - Let's just kiss more. I love it. - Gun beamed at the older boy and Off was so happy hearing that. Their nervousness seemed to dissipate almost completely.
- You're so good at it. Are you sure you haven't done that before? - Off huffed a laugh starting to play with the hair on the nape of Gun's neck. The younger boy arched like a cat enjoying it.
- Am I really? I was nervous about it, but it turned out to be so easy with Papii.
- Yeah. It feels natural with you. - Off admitted and Gun nodded agreeing with it. Somehow they both couldn't stop smiling at each other.
- Papii, I don't want to stop doing that. - Gun said suddenly timid.
- Well, me too. - Off replied and started to pull the boy in for another kiss, but he got interrupted.
- I mean, like in the future...
- Yeah, that too. - Off said - Didn't we just agree that it was amazing? Why would we stop then? I say, we should definitely do everything that feels so good and so right like this in the future. - Off smiled coyly and Gun blushed hiding his face in the older boy's chest for a moment, because Off didn't say that it was just kissing he was talking about.
That night they made out for a long time. Trying out different kisses. Getting to know each other's lips thoroughly. When Gun tried to lick into Off's mouth shyly, Off welcomed it with a satisfied hum. He only shifted his hips, so Gun wouldn't notice he was hard.
- What is it, Papii? - Gun asked feeling Off wriggling away. - Am I too heavy?
- No... - Off got embarrassed, but on the other hand he was sure Gun had to feel "something" too from the way they were making out and sucking at each other's tongues. Which was amazing, but also making him dizzy with how much of a turn on it was. So, he decided there's no need to be shy about admitting it. - You just... Made me hard. - Off confessed biting at his swollen lips nervously.
- Oh... - Gun opened his eyes as if he's just realised something himself - Me too. - he smiled awkwardly - It's okay, isn't it? We can just ignore that for now, right?
- Well, yeah, if you're not bothered by it?
- I'm not. - Gun smiled innocently - It feels good even without doing anything about it.
- Okay. - Off said relieved. It turned out that it was so easy to talk about that kind of stuff with Gun. - Do you want to maybe go to sleep already? - he asked straightforwardly.
- Maybe not just yet? - Gun looked hopeful and Off grinned ready to kiss the boy crazy some more. - Can we switch the position though? My arms feel weak. - Gun asked.
- Yeah, of course. Oh god, you should've said something earlier. - Off rushed to roll them on the bed, so he was now above the younger boy. Their groins brushed in the process and both of them let out a funny whimper at the same time and it made them giggle even though they were blushing so much.
- Oi, Papii, be careful. - Gun scolded laughing.
- I'm sorry, I'm sorry! - Off said amused - I'm keeping my han... I mean, my... hips to myself. - he cracked a joke that helped to make the situation lighter.
- Papii is a good kisser. - Gun said hugging the older boy.
- Says the one who was supposed to be the inexperienced. - Off raised an eyebrow at the other boy - Yet turned out to be the best kiss in my life.
- You're just saying that...
- Yeah, I'm just saying that, because it's true.
- Stop making me shy! - Gun whined swatting Off in the shoulder like he always did when the older boy was teasing him.
- I like making you shy. - Off said smug. - Can I suck on your plump lips some more? - Off smirked watching Gun's cheeks turn crimson.
- Y-you can. - the boy answered.
- Can I suck on your tongue some more too?
- Papii, shut up! Don't just say it out loud like that! - Gun shouted closing his eyes so he won't feel so embarrassed.
- Ah, if you pout like that I want to kiss you so bad. - Off swooned and joined their lips again.
- It'sss funny... Isnnn't it. - Gun mumbled into the kiss.
- What is funny? - Off pretended like he is annoyed - I'm kissing you. Shut up. - He said amused.
- I mean, earlier I thought that maybe we would try to kiss just a bit and then not really discuss it, but now it seems we can't shut up about it. - Gun giggled.
- Can we ever shut up about anything we like? - Off asked just to make a point.
- Well, not really. - Gun stuck out his tongue playfully and Off tried to kiss it on a whim, but didn't quite make it. - Hey, what was that? - the younger boy laughed.
- I was trying to kiss your tongue. - Off stated calmly as if that was nothing unusual.
- Papii, you weirdo! - Gun scolded smiling.
- What? We did that before tonight.
- That was different!
- Not that much. - Off grinned and Gun huffed frowning. Off didn't wait a minute longer to kiss the frown away.