SUGAR

Twenty (Filler chapter)

PSA: This story is titled Sugar . Not Ant, Amir, or Kyra. Puhleaseeee do not harass me about these other characters. They are simply here to make up the plot of HER story.  You all will get a POV from everyone - some longer then others. Sit back, relax, & enjoy the read! -xoxo, Management

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Sugar

Jumping out of my sleep my heart beated rapidly as I wiped my tear stained face. Mira had came to visit me again in yet another dream and my heart was heavy. I was hoping to get some comfort from Amir only not to feel him beside me.

I panicked immediately. Quickly feeling all around the king sized bed only to feel a lump of covers jumbled together. Amir was gone. I was glad I located a note on the nightstand stating he had some business to take care of and to make myself at home. There was also some towels with a new bottle of Dove body wash for me as well.

I suddenly realized what had happened before I passed out. My bottom half of my body ached terribly and I still felt stickness between my legs. I wanted nothing more to take a long hot bath. I sat in his bed as naked as the day I was born and instantly cursed myself knowing I was no longer pure. This isn't even like me.

I couldn't believe after less then twenty-four hours of being around Amir already I had already let him take control of me. I love Amir, don't get me wrong. No matter how far he went or how long we quit talking I knew when I first seen him at the mall again the love was still there. He was my first true love, even my first french kiss, but I know deep down I wasn't truly ready to give myself to him. I blamed it on all that I had recently been through.

After we had smoked it was like I was on a high that I'd never experienced before. Whatever he had bought for us was stronger than whatever I usually smoked. My body was on a cloud and I just wanted to feel as good as my high was making me feel. Soon everything was numb and went into a blur. It was my first time and I could hardly remember how it went.

Getting up from the bed my legs felt like they would give up on me at any given moment. I felt like a toddler who was learning their first steps all over again. Grabbing the towels I took Amir's oversized shirt he had left behind with me and made my way to the restroom inside the room I had slept in.

Turning on the water making sure it steamed the bathroom I hopped into the shower closing the curtain behind me. As soon as the water came down onto my body I let all the tears out I had been holding in as my mind went to the night we found Mira. I couldn't shake this guilt and sorrow I felt.

Since losing her my life had been coming at me full speed. I couldn't help but to wish it was Kyra and not her..

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Meanwhile...

Kyra

I tossed and turned in my sleep waking up suddenly with with sweat glistening across my forehead. Fuck. I hated this. What I did to Mira couldn't be undone. I began snorting powder again to make myself forget the night I snapped but it always found it's way to haunt me. I constantly had nightmares replaying the pillow over her face with her ear piercing screams. And at the end of the dream I was always caught.

My child hood had made me cold I been through alot.  Never had I thought I'd get myself here. Now here I was at nineteen with my baby blood on my hands while I carried another. I couldn't handle Mira or even connect with her how I should have been but I would have never killed her. I'm not a killer. I just lost control and couldn't take it. I couldn't stop her from screaming, I tried I swear I did. I  just snapped.

I ran three blocks down where I knew a abandoned house sat and hid in there until CoCo came After leaving the house.  I immediately called CoCo knowing she was truly all I had that didn't have something against me also. Seeing Mira lifeless I went to instant panic. Calling her all I could scream that I killed her which was a mistake. Sitting here I had to quick think and I was thankful to be a liar and to actually be good at it. Life was so harsh to me but I had to admit it tended to work in my favor. That's how I knew God had to still see something in me.

CoCo began to throw a million questions as soon as I shut the door to her minivan. I was crying hysterically already so there was no need to add any extra dramatics as I began to wail. "It's all my fault! I killed her CoCo! He killed her because of me!" I sobbed. "He told me if he catch me around any more niggas he killing us! He found Amir's phone and he took her from me!" CoCo fumed because she had been around long enough to see him hurt me and all the threats he's made. It wasn't impossible. And it worked.

I had been away now for some time and I hadn't been caught yet. Now that I had been away two months already I felt it was time to come back. I was pregnant now anyway. Who the fuck want to go to jail for hurting a pregnant girl? Ha. They all knew better. I had unfinished business and if I was going to sail off into the seas with CoCo I was going out with a bang.

I had a plan to go see Anthony and let him learn of his child. A child he wouldn't dare harm me over.