I don't know how to express it
I don't know how to express anything anymore
Especially when it comes to stuff like death
I don't know what has happened to me, I saw my sister fall in front of me, not moving for minutes on end
I lost someone and the pain is still there and what scares me is that it's gotten worse
And the thought. Of college. My applications, Friday, due, most of them
I don't want to be a disappointment but I'm losing my hope everydayA horrible friend? That's me
A toxic and horrible person? Right here
I'm trying to find ways to vent but I can't find any other way but to be a CLOWN and laugh about it!!! Because that's who I am!!! A funny friend!!! The third wheel!!
I don't know what to do anymore!! Everyone is a succeeding and I'm becoming more of a failure!!!
Everyone's watching over me and I'm going to die early in life!!! I can FEEL IT it's like death is just looming at me like "...ello there"
I've lost friendships, I feel like I'm alone again, I feel like I'm annoying and unwanted and I don't know why but these thoughts will not STOP
and
I don't know how to express myself anymore and I just want to find a way to escape this world or
maybe something that'll take me out of it!!!! Am I right my guys???
I'll grab my passport and go through the gates, onto the train of death and make my way out of this crumbling reality
I'm not making it anywhere
I miss her
I'm going crazy
Can this shit just. End.
I don't know what else to say.
I don't know what to do.
This is all I have to say
YOU ARE READING
Just..Talking
RandomRandom thoughts n stuff...to let out some emotions Im tired lol