𝖉𝖆𝖞6 𝖔𝖓𝖊-𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖙𝖘 { 𝖘𝖑𝖔𝖜 }

headache. | younghyun

younghyun's diary

[12/11/2019, 11.37am]

i really like y/n. wait, scratch that. i love y/n. the both of us have been neighbours since young and we always went over to each other's houses to play. our neighbourly relationship also became into friendship over time. we also attended the same schools since we moved in next to each other.

i crushed on her since high school. i still crush on her though, i've never told her my feelings. we've always been close friends and even until now, in uni, i still find her attractive. however. since junior year, we kinda drifted apart. maybe its because of the fact that we have our own group of friends or because we have more schedules. i have no idea myself. but nowadays, she doesn't even look at me in the eye when i bump into her in the hall.

y/n, i miss talking to you. i miss being your best friend, your best guy friend, your brother. why cant you even look at me now?

oh please
please look at me,
i'm right in front of you
oh please
please say something, anything
you erased me, now i don't exist
i'm fading away from you...

honestly, its hurts for me to see you like this. i want you back, even if its as a friend. every time i walk past you in the halls, you pretend i'm invisible. why is that so?

younghyun's pov

i sighed and closed my diary. i missed my friendship with her so much. i walked out of the school building towards the garden at the back of the school to get some fresh air. my emotions were building up and i needed to relax. the garden is usually quiet because not many people knew about the existence of this garden, being tucked behind the school.

wait, who's that on the garden bench? she's back facing me so i cant see her face. upon walking closer, i realized it's y/n. i approached her quietly, making sure that my shoes didn't make too much noise when walking towards her. she was furiously writing something in her diary.

crunch

oh fuck i stepped on a leaf

she looked up and saw me. she hurriedly stood up and left, but she forgot to take her diary that she was previously writing in. because of the curious person i am, i peeked into her book. the pages were mainly filled with angry scribbles and some sort of code. on the last page however, i saw her diary entry.

y/n's diary

[12/11/2019, 11.40am]

kang fucking younghyun. do you know how much i like you? but after that incident in high school, i cant bring myself to tell you about how much i like you anymore. i still like you, however. but you kissed that slut, park jiwoo, in front of my fucking eyes. that day was the day i was going to confess to you. but you kissed her. how can i still say i loved you? you obviously lied to me the night before by telling me that you don't like anyone. so from then onwards, i purposely ignored you and tried to find ways not to interact with you.

younghyun's pov

i closed her diary.

i fucked up her feelings for me.

why, kang younghyun, why did you accept that dare?

to make up to her for that stupid kiss that ruined my friendship with her, i tore off a page of my diary and wrote an apology and explanation and attached it in her diary. afterwards, i went to look for her to return the book. luckily for me, she was in the library reading a book titled 'how to fall out of love'. strange, but eh. i returned the book to her saying that i saw her leave her diary in the garden and immediately went to find her. she nodded and fixed her eyes back on her book. i took that as my cue to leave and i left her in the library.

y/n's pov

shit, is that younghyun? how the fuck did he find me here? why is he everywhere i go? sigh. why is he walking towards me omg why am i looking at him?? oh wait he's holding something in his hands. HOLY SHIT IS THAT MY DIARY?

younghyun handed over my diary explaining that he picked it up in the garden and came to find me immediately. i nodded, hoping that he didn't read its content. after he was out of my sight, i opened the book.

wait... theres a note in my book? foreign handwriting...

'dear y/n. yes i read your latest diary entry and i just wanna clear things up for you, so thats why im writing this. the only reason why i kissed park jiwoo in high school was because jaehyung, my idiot friend if you still remember, dared me to. i only agreed to that because he said he would give me 10 bucks for that. and when i locked my lips with jiwoo, i saw a figure in the hallway. was it you? if it was, im sorry. i know the night before i told you i didn't like anyone and it was true, i really don't like anyone; except for you. so, if you're willing to give me a chance to fix our friendship, meet me at the park we used to play when we were young at 7pm after your last class. yours truly, kang younghyun.'

- time skip to 6.55pm -

i guessed that i'm early because i didn't see younghyun at the park so i just found a bench to sit down and started to scroll through twitter. apparently, theres a very popular guy on twitter right now going by the handle of jae_day6 who seems to be a foreigner who enjoys hiking.

i felt the wooden bench slighlty move and i saw younghyun beside me. before i could say anything, younghyun started to talk.

'y/n, i want to apologize for firstly kissing jiwoo. it was a dare i shoudn't have accepted. in the first place, you were the one i liked. i was just a dumb and broke high schooler. secondly, i want to apologize for making you feel that i lied. you can ask jaehyung about my feelings towards you, his twitter handle is jae_day6. lastly, i want to apologize...'

younghyun kneeled on the ground with one leg propped up and held out the most beautiful and exquisite rose i ever saw.

'... for not confessing to you earlier. y/n, i liked you since high school. but now, my feelings for you developed into something else much more; i love you. you're the most perfect woman i ever met in this life. so please, would you forgive me and be my girlfriend?'

'i'd love to, younghyun.'

he stood up and pulled me into a tight embrace. i burried my head in the crook of his neck and i felt a pair of lips touch my forehead. jeez, this man can seriously make my heart flutter.

'i love you, y/n.'

end.

a/n : ok the ending is kinda cute uwu yes this issa surprise chapter i didnt plan on writing today HAHAH hope yall enjoyed it :D

also mydays, did you get the reference to the foreigner who likes hiking? HAHA

- est <3