Matoria Denise
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2:59 pm
I stood in the kitchen drinking shot of hennessy letting it burn my throat as I washed dishes and cleaned off my counters and cleaned out my cabinets bobbing my head to the beat of tyler the creator "she". Drinking has been my routine since that night a'stari popped up at my door drunk as hell and beating my ass, I drink to cope with the sober thoughts and feelings she gave me. I felt like a bitch when she left my house all because I made her that way, I hurt her heart and made her hate me.
I shook my head fighting the tears back that wanted to drop so bad, I hate the fact we couldn't even be in contact with each other without her hating me or wanting to put her hands on me. I shook the thoughts off and took another shot loving the burning sensation in my throat. I was in love with her sad to say.. I wanted her here with me no matter how I try to stop thinking about me and her I can't get her out of my head she was like my drug and I was a addict for her.
"Tori" taz said walking into the kitchen with bags of more food.
"Oh wassup taz? What u doing here?" I said finishing the dishes.
"Just checking on u mama, u good?" She asked hugging my waist from behind, taz is super affectionate.
"Yea I'm doing ok" I said knowing I was only lying to her and my self.
"I know it's hard for u but I'm right here every step of the way I promise" she said smiling putting stuff away in the fridge.
"It hurt taz but I'm going to be ight" I said more so trying to convince myself than her.
"I know u are and stop all that damn drinking" she said snatching my Hennessy bottle up.
"Yea ight mom" I said rolling my eyes snatching it back.
"Stop being sarcastic bitch but look who I brought to see u" she said as she start to smile.
"Who?" I asked confused.
"Yanna" she yelled as I heard little feet running toward the kitchen.
"Yes mama? Hey titi" she said hugging my leg.
"Hey baby, how are u?" I asked picking her up kissing her cheeks.
"I'm good mama said u sad" she said frowning kissing my cheek, I swear this little girl to smart for her age.
"No baby titi not sad just a little down right now" I said smiling at her.
"Are u going to be ok titi?" She asked laying her head on my chest.
"Yes baby" I said tickling her.
"Titi look ma brought me cheetos and the hot kind" she giggled holding her bag of hot chips.
"She should'nt have brought u nothing" I said mugging her.
"Why?" She asked looking at me.
"Because your bad little girl" I said putting her back down.
"I not bad titi" she said innocently.
"Next week I'm going to take u and ask my dad can laya go to see the new frozen movie" I told her texting my dad about my little sister.
"Ok titi and I hope lay lay comes" she said smiling big as I mentioned lay lay I think she had a crush on her.
"Ight bug go watch tv while I finished talking to titi" taz said handing yanna a juice box.
"Ok mama" she said running back into the living room.
"So have she came back since the other night?" Taz asked me sipping on a Capri sun.
