Heaven Janae Smith "Ecstasy"
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7:30 pm
"On my worst day would u still feel me" I listened to Beyoncé sing laying back in the tub letting the hot water relax my body and my mind. I know y'all probably been like where have u been es? I been chilling by myself to be honest. I can go weeks or months without communicating with any one and I'll be right here in my house avoiding everybody. Sometimes my depression will have my in bed for hours and I can't get up, I just started back taking my anti-depressants when I noticed they got delivered to my house the other day probably matoria ass, her and stari the only two who knows how bad I could get and e. E is like our big brother he older than all of us he 26 with one son and a black feet ratchet ass baby mama.
It's been at least a week since I seen it talked to stari and tori, it's just that my feelings for them continue to get stronger after every sexual intercourse we have and I can't stop it, I find myself thinking of them, their smell, the way their bodies look naked, the way their sex blew my fucking mind. I was addicted them that's why I try my best to stay away and it's not like I have feelings for one more than the other, it's equal. I scrubbed my body with my dove body scrub and let the water out of the tub, taking the wine glass and my clothes back into my room.
"Sex Therapy" blasted through my house as I started to think about stari and tori just pleading and teasing my body making me feel like I'm on cloud 9. I laid back on my bed and opened my legs letting my hands travel down the sides on my body, my hands where cold leaving goose bumps on my body, I reached down and started to rub my clit in circular motions biting my lip at the intense feeling I was getting. I start to think about the way stari would eat me until I cried out, making me rub my clit faster, letting soft moans escape my lips. I wasn't satisfied with just my hands I reached over in my draw and pulled out my pink 8 inch dildo and slowly rubbed it down my wet folds causing me to gasp and arch my back. I slipped the dildo in my tight wet core and almost screamed at how good it felt inside of me.
"Fuck stari" I moaned out thrusting the pink toy in and out my wet pussy hard biting my lip.
"Yes yes right there" I kept moaning rubbing my clit as I kept thrusting the toy inside of me this time going deeper hitting my spot over and over, I was a moaning mess trying to not to be louder than the music but my body was feeling to damn good.
"Tori please" I screamed as I squirted on my silk gold comforter and kept pounding my gushing pussy with the toy, feeling another orgasm build up, I kept
the toy steady feeling my body shake as my second orgasm finally came.
I caught my breath and smiled to myself thinking of how intense that was for me, I slowly pulled the toy out of my pussy sucking my juices of it, turning on my side feeling my eyes get heavy, I guess I knocked my own pussy out.
Matoria Denise
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1:34 pm
I felt like complete shit, after stari left the shop yesterday I was crying non stop but I couldn't help but be mad at myself, she was so good to me and I couldn't stop my hoe ass ways. I love that girl with everything in me and I don't want her to leave me alone, I don't want to see her with nobody else at all. But I know if ion get on my shit she will go be with somebody else and I can't do that. I can't handle seeing her with somebody else. I don't know even know why I cheated, I just did. I guess when u used to being hurt and when u finally find something good u don't know how to handle it.
I got up out the bed stretching, looking around my room seeing all these empty ass liquor bottles from last night. I shook my head and walked into the bathroom brushing my teeth and washing my face. I started to clean my room and my house thinking about how bad I really hurt my wife. I felt so stupid making her feel insecure because she already was insecure because she was a stud and the submissive one in our relationship. We would switch up but I'm mostly the dominant one, and then I cheat on her with a fem, she actually some bitch I just met last week that talked me into fucking her and I should've told that bitch no.
