Devil Town - Cavetown

Chapter 5

March 4 ,2000
It's lovely in the evening time here. But something happened, I had another panic attack thing.
I closed my eyes and breathed the fresh air and the sun became dimmer. But Charon! You are probably saying, "that's how it works! You can't see anything when you close your eyes!" But it wasn't like that! It felt like the world was.. ending.

The clouds were falling down onto the streets to make fog and I watched as the last busy men went to their car or bus stop to get back home from their work. I started to feel like I wasn't good enough again. "You'll never be able to be as good as those men". When I get those types of thoughts I like to sink my teeth into my fingers, watching the blood come out. It makes me calm.
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Spring is coming. That was Lilith's favorite season! But how can she be so sure of that desicion? What if it isn't her actual favorite season? What if she didn't know who she was?! How can she be so proud when walking with me to school?! I'm a devil!

I closed my eyes and everything was just chaos. Colors were fading and changing inside my mouth?! And everything became so loud even though I was the only one in the room. I sank my teeth into my fingers and watched as my blood dripped onto the floor.

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Dewsbury is colder in the summertime. My dad told me to stay inside but for the first time, I didn't. I wanted to go outside. To the bridge above a lake at a park nearby. I had lost my mind I knew it. I just couldn't handle it anymore! It was too much!
I made a note for Lilith and saying how we will meet again in hell. I went outside and saw that it was windy. Very windy.

I got to the bridge. I looked at the water below me. It was a good 1 mile jump from the bridge into the water. I felt scared. I have to do this..

This is the last thing I'm writing in this book.. goodbye..

Charon's last ever words before she died were "Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you fell this way too"

Yay you got to the end!! Good job!! Here have a Cherry 🍒