ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Chapter 31

Fenna

“I will explain dear, but not here. We need to be celebrating, don't we?”

I say, trying to avert his gaze which is boring into my skin.

How am I going to start telling him that Julia and I were the best of friends while in college abroad?

How will I gather the guts to tell him that she caught me romancing her lover? Kissing him and in return fiddling with my nipples? How?

Till to date, Julia has never believed that I never fucked her man! Well, I almost did..blame it on alcohol.

Hadn't she left with a new hunk? Probably to fuck?
Her lover needed company and I offered him fully!

“Fenna... We have to be frank with each other for our relationship to work. You're my fiancee and I need to know everything going on in your life!”

What is this now? Emotional blackmail?
Nolan!

“We're going home from here. I hope you'd have gathered your guts to tell me everything!”

I don't say anything. Instead, I remain mum as he settles the bill and as usual, offers me his hand. I take it gladly and we walk out hand in hand.

He drives like a maniac towards his house and I can tell he's enraged.

He has a reason to....

That show Julia put up in the restaurant is worth raising eyebrows.

I rush to the kitchen immediately I step in the house. He's hot in heels behind me and I need to distract him till I calm down.

I almost bump into Leah but she evades me immediately.
I'm already pouring some water in a glass from a bottle when Nolan catches up with me.
I take a sip and the cooling sensation soothes me.

I gulp down the remaining contents and sigh heavily...

His eyes are glued on me as I gulp down the last contents in the glass.

He eyes me questioningly and I know its about time.

I have to let the cat out of the bag before Julia tells the story in a more fabricated manner.

Is he going to believe me?
If he doesn't, I'd have tried....atleast.
I clear my throat and eye him constantly.

“Can we go upstairs...at least? I need to lie down...”

He doesn't reply, instead, he walks out and I follow him from behind, momentarily straightening my dress.

I lie on the bed and sigh heavily.
Nolan seems to notice my nervousness and he lies next to me, taking my head into his arm.

“Fenna...I need to understand your past better. Julia is my friend's wife and it's evident she doesn't like you!”

“Neither do I!”
The words are out before I think twice.

How can I like her if she can't trust me?
*Fuck*

“Julia hates me for nothing Nolan...she was my best friend while in college in the states. We did almost everything together. We were like sisters. She had come to partake her bachelor's degree so she knew no one around. Luckily, my family hosted her because we are from the same country...”

I pause a little bit, swallowing hard.

Nolan looks at me with those eyes...

“Interesting!”
He comments, urging me to go on.

I'm not sure if I want him to know about my escapades over there. But does it matter?
I was young and still exploring.

“Julia is the outgoing type. She introduced me to clubbing though my parents never allowed me to go out at night but we would always come up with an excuse. Julia had a regular boy whom she used to hook up with from time to time. One evening, there was a house party hosted by one of the undergraduates from this country and he invited all of us. As usual, Julia and I convinced mum and  dad and they let us go....”

He's listening carefully,closing his eyes momentarily, waiting for me to finish up the story.

“Cliff, Julia's boyfriend happened to be in the same party though he arrived late. Julia wanted to hook up with another hunk who was in the party therefore she told me to lie about her whereabouts when cliff comes. She then left with the new catch to have fun. When Cliff arrived, he looked for his girl but she was nowhere to be found. I was already tipsy as I waited for Julia to come back so that we may go back home. Cliff wanted to know where Julia was and I found myself telling him the truth....”

“Typical college guys...”

He comments.

I shift to watch his expression but his eyes are still closed.

“How did he take the news?”

“He was mad...enraged, sad, angry...name them! He picked a bottle of gin and drank half of it in a gulp. His eyes colour changed immediately and I knew he wasn't himself. He requested me to take a walk with him and I didn't refuse. The bottle of gin was still in his hands as we went out. He would stop to gulp down some and hand the bottle to me. I also sipped and I became more drunk than before....”

“You shouldn't have followed him!”

Nolan says and I let out a chuckle. He doesn't even have an idea how much I wanted to follow him, even to his house.

I never did the dating thing but I hooked up here and there.

“So what happened?”
He asks, making me snap out of my reverie.

“We sat on a bench near the swimming pool and continued drinking. We chatted and chatted as we drunk. I don't know what came over Cliff because he suddenly grabbed me and lay me on the bench then started kissing me. I should have resisted but I didn't!”

I steal a glance at Nolan and I see him open his eyes then turns to face me, withdrawing his hand from beneath my head.

“You kissed your friend's lover?”
He asks, trying to hide his disgust towards me.

“I was drunk Nolan! Very drunk! Cliff too wasn't himself. He was angry (and hungry too)...”

“That doesn't justify you kissing him! He was your best friend's boyfriend for Christ sake Fenna!”

“I only kissed him Nolan. I won't lie to you though! I didn't resist. I let him caress me allover as he literary ate my lips....!”

“So, how did Julia find out?”

He asks curiously.

“She found us still kissing. He was on top of me, both of us fully clad but she made a fuss about it! She thinks I had already screwed him but to be sincere, I didn't...”

“Is that why she hates you?”

“Yeah...and the fact that cliff was on top of me and broke up with her immediately...”

“So you guys didn't....err...uhhh...arrrr!”
He asks, tracing my jawline with his soft fingers.

“Stop it Nolan. I've told you the whole truth. Don't you trust me?”

“I believe you honey...I sincerely do...”
He assures me as he gets off his clothes.

“What are you doing Nolan?”

“I want you to show me how you kissed cliff!”

“Are you jealous? Come on Nolan, it happened way before we met!”

He lifts me and makes me sit on bed. He helps me out of any dress and I giggle inwardly after seeing his erection almost popping out of his boxers.

I know what he wants....

He ain't angry with me...

I sigh with relief when he slams into me hard, letting out a squirm.....