dear seokjin,

25

[twenty-five]

07|11|17

"You need to be careful, you were hit in the head. "
"Seokjin I'm fine, I didn't fall from a high distance nor did I hurt our baby. I'm fine." He mumbled rubbing his temples after he was stopped from reaching to grab a snack. "I know I know, Yoongi I'm just worried and the house got broken into..." he mumbled as he was trying to sweep up the broken glass, since him and his husband just got home from the hospital he had just now started to clean. "I really need to get my work done, I have to figure out who's going to take my place during my maternity leave... it's difficult... I-I'm sorry to have to make you pick all this up but I need to.." he mumbled as he grabbed his snack. "No no baby.. it's okay.." he whispered as he put the broom down and wrapped his arms around Yoongi's swollen belly that's proceeding to grow. "I feel bad Hyung.." he whispered putting the food down while placing his hand's on his lover's arms. " don't be.." "b-but this is my home too.. a-a-and I'm supposed to help and.. I'm not doing that, I feel useless and lazy." "Woah! stop that please, you're NOT lazy, you're definitely  not useless. You're pregnant, hurting and over thinking... it's okay.. I can clean up this mess, I promise." He said kissing behind his lover's ear.

"Hyung.." he whispered, tears starting to run down his cheeks. "no no.. baby.. go finish up your work, I've got this... don't worry.." the younger only nodded, knowing not to fight back on what the elder was telling him.

He wished he could help, feeling a small pain in his chest as he slowly pushed the elder off and went into the office, locking the door after.

"why can't I be more helpful.."
He muttered to himself, burying his face into his hands.

-
Seokjin watched the younger leave, a sigh escaping his lips as he slowly went back to finish cleaning up.

Once he had finished, he saw that Yoongi had left his food on the counter. He shook his head as he grabbed it and went to the office, finding it locked but he reached up to the door frame grabbing the key to the door. He slowly unlocked it while peeking in.

He looked at Yoongi, hearing soft whimpers and sniffles. He tilted his head as he gently shut the door behind him, walking up closer to him his heart broke as he saw his lover's arm bleeding. "Baby..." he said brokenly as he grabbed the bloodied object from his hand and shoved it in his pocket to dispose of later.

"No... g-give it back.." he cried as he faced towards him but was pulled into an embrace before he was picked up and brought to the bathroom. "Yoongi, why..?" "J-Just give it back.." "no you're not getting it." He said sharply which resulted in a cry from his lover.

"I need you to stop, this is something you're not supposed to do. Do you realize you could mess up and kill our son? T-That... y-you could mess up and leave me..? I'm so sorry baby.. y-you shouldn't be doing this to yourself.." the elder spoke to his lover, sitting him on the edge of the tub while he reached for the first aid kit. Yoongi didn't speak as he held onto his belly, brushing the cloth covered skin with his thumb, his lover cleaning up the freshly made cuts while. The elder put butterfly stitches on the cuts, wrapping his arm gently before tossing the blade in the toilet and flushed it down. As soon as he did he pulled him into his arms as he moved against the wall, whispering sweet things into his ear, rubbing his stomach. " I'm not mad, I'm upset and worried baby.." the younger didn't reply as he rested his head on his chest. His free hand grabbed onto his rings that was on the necklace wrapped around his neck, while the other sat below his abdomen. "Yoongi I need you to talk to me." Seokjin said  placing his lips against  Yoongi's temple. His own tears running down his cheeks as he tried to keep himself calm for his upset lover.

"I'm sorry.. I-I'm so sorry.." "no baby, please don't.. no no.. I'm just... upset that you didn't talk to me, what happened.. w-what's going on princess?"

"I had voices telling me that I.. I should kill my self."

"Oh my god... no baby... no no no..."