X1 imagines

Secrets

It was one tiring day at school, and I wish nothing but to go home as soon as we dismiss but, I had a shift in my part-time job, my last shift I ever had I thought

I open the lights of my dorm as I entered inside. Same old thing, it was not too messy nor too neat. I've been living alone since Seungyoun, Hangyul and Yohan live in the university athlete's dorm while Wooseok don't want to have a roommate. That guy, sometimes I wonder if he's really my friend.

I gather my stuff in my room before hopping in the bathroom. I seriously need to lather the smell of smoke and alcohol off my body that won't be able disturb my nostrils after tonight, finally. After a nice warm bath, I changed to my favorite pajamas and went straight back to my room.

On top of my study table, I saw my precious black notebook. No, it's not like that black notebook in an anime. I was a fan when I was in my teens but, not to the point of owning one... Anyway, I flipped my notebook open.

Let me tell you a story. My name is Han Seungwoo, I guess you figure it out by now. I am 23 years old and in my last year in college, majoring in communication, broadcasting, and media arts. I am a working student like what I said a while ago. The name of my workplace? I can't tell you that. I am a bartender in that place and there's a lot of things I have to keep secret while working there.

I bought this black notebook of mine to get things off my chest. I am guessing you already knew, it's a diary. It sounds girly but yes, I own a diary. However, it isn't a typical one that girls used to write everyday with every small thing that happened and all that girly stuff, sorry if I sound so stereotypical. Believe me, I am not that kind of guy.

My diary is quite different. What I wrote in here are things that I see, things that need to be confessed yet I can't, there is too much risk and too many lives will be affected including hers. I wrote those in here to get it off my chest. They are secrets I saw in there; some are dirty secrets.

I open my speaker and connect my phone to its bluetooth. I shuffled it before playing. I continue flipping through pages and read some entries.

July 5, xxxx

I was wiping some spills I caused while mixing some drinks. I didn't sign up for a bartender position in the first place. I applied for the DJ position to show my music skills but, they decided to put me here. What a life. Today I decided to buy this notebook after a lot of internal debate to share a secret I can't tell anyone. 6 months after working in this place, I learned a lot of things that others don't know. It became a burden because I can't talk about it to anyone. Real faces behind those masks I used to see in broad daylight. Secrets shimmering under the low lights at night.

July 6, xxxx

Typical Saturday night, a lot of people came into the party. Dance songs are blasting through the speakers at maximum level. I saw some famous faces in our campus. There are some public figures that I can't name. It isn't the first time I saw known people in this place, yet he is here, let's name him the nation's pick. He went up to the VIP room with a girl, we can call her doe eyed girl group leader (a/n: lowkey promoting my Wanna One imagines). They always go on secret dates here mostly with friends but all they did was to eat, chill and socialize with their companions.

This place provides a lot of secrecy. Phones aren't even allowed, wifi can't be hacked, employees signed contracts of non-disclosure of anything we see here and this place is heavily secured. Heck! You can't enter this place unless you are a member, and most members are rich enough to afford the pay here.

July 7, xxxx

This time, I saw that girl from Y university. She is known a campus belle for being beautiful, rich and smart. I even heard Hangyul talked about this girl one time, he said Jinhyuk liked this girl so much, but he doesn't have a courage to confess. I remembered he was discouraged by our dongsaeng deuls in our X101 ktalk group, it was a group chat formed by Dongpyo for special class in our school for people who received a high marks in their chosen course or track. You see, we are all studying in X university since middle school and all thanks to that scholarship I got in middle school. Anyway, good thing Jinhyuk heed to our warnings back then, this girl is totally different from her image at school. She is making out with some guy whom she just met. I want to cringe at the scenario when I went to their table to serve some drinks, personally. After doing so, I sent a signal to my friend Youngjae to approach them, to ask if they want to avail other services this place have to offer. They might need a room for themselves later #cringe