Can I really love the Alpha?

Training

For the past 2 weeks I have been staying at Allison's because I am afraid to go home and see my brother. Chris has his sister Kate begin to train me. I every second of everyday doing schoolwork or training. Kate has been secretly training Allison with me. Chris still thinks Allison is oblivious to the super natural. She didn't tell me how Kate proved to her that werewolves do exist but she did.
Everyday Allison and I work on our fighting techniques and are precise shooting. Allison has been working with a bow and arrow her whole life and let me tell you if I were a werewolf I would not want to mess with her.
My best tool is knife throwing but I have great am and I am a hell of a fighter. I guess all those times that Scott and I use to wrestle paid off. I get said when I think of my brother. I miss him so much but during this time he is a danger to me and I am scared of him.
Kate is a great teacher. She knows how to get me going. I do not agree though when she says they must kill all werewolves. Chris tells us only to kill the ones who kill the innocent. It is the code.
Allison is now more then ever my best friend. She understands how I feel. We know everything about each other. When I have nightmares about being raped she stays up with me until I am okay. Allison and I still go to school but, during our frees and lunch we go home to train. We stay up late training. We wake up early to train and we train when we take breaks from our school work. For some reason though I feel like something bad is going to happen.
Also Allison went to homecoming without me. I would not be caught dead at something like that without a date. She told me that at homecoming the Alpha had bitten Lydia and she was in hospital.
Derek's POV
I miss her. I miss Alyssa. I don't understand why she is mad at me for what Scott did. I protected her against Scott. I even went to go see her in the hospital she still won't talk to me. Well now because of Stiles and Scott I am always on the run from the police but, they always help me get away. I think someone taught Alyssa how to mask her scent because I can't track her scent down anywhere. I honestly don't even know why I care about her but I do.
Scott is always sad and thinks about Allison since they broke. He says he sees Alyssa in school all the time but, when he goes to talk to her she is gone. She had been staying at some girls house but I don't know who it is. I do know however Kate Argent is in town and she is probably going to go after Alyssa because of me. That bitch Kate killed my whole family. Not everyone in my house was a werewolf too. We had human children down there. I just hope Alyssa is safe. I am still trying to train Scott because he is still a danger to everybody around him. He feels horrible about what he did to Alyssa. He just wants to fix what he did wrong.
Scott and I have also been trying to catch the alpha. But everyday I go to see my uncle Peter at the nursing home to see if he is getting and nothing ever changes.
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When Stiles went to the hospital to go figure something out he was kidnapped from Peter. The whole time he has been the Alpha he is the one who killed my sister Laura. I went to the house were my family was killed to think. Scott followed me without me knowing while we are in the woods I hear something all of sudden Scott and I were being attacked by three hunters.
Alyssa's POV
We were about to ambush two werewolves. Allison and I were nervous but Kate acted like it was just another ordinary day. I accidentally made a noise while walking and one of the wolves looked right at me. It was Derek and Scott. Derek comes running up to me he disarms me immediately and all I have left is hand to hand combat. This is what I have been waiting for. To feel power. Derek is beyond angry and taking swings at me with his claws from left to right. I ducted all of them. until one went right across my lower stomach. I don't stop fighting even though I am going to die in a few seconds anyway. The doctor said another wound like that in the abdomen would kill me in minutes but, I get back down I can't. I don't want to kill him I just have to follow Kate's order otherwise she will kill me.
Before I know it the Aloha pounces on me and leaves deep claw marks in my stomach. I fall to the ground from the pain. The alpha takes out all the other hunters except for Allison who is running over to help me. All of a sudden the alpha takes Kate and I know he was going to kill her I tell Allison to run and try to help her just as I do. We try reason with the Alpha but nothing works he kills Kate. Allison and I stand there shocked and then that's all I remember from that night.
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I can hear everyone talking around me but I can't move. The doctors are talking about pulling the plug. I hear my mom scream at the top of her lungs begging them not to. She grabs my hand and I try so hard to squize her hand. I am successful. I can tell everyone left room. All of a sudden I hear the door open and close I have no clue who this is. I feel somebody place their lips on my forehead. They were unfimiliar lips. Them I hear the voice that makes my heart melt. It is Derek.
"Alyssa you are fighter. You have to keep fighting for you, you family, your friends and for me. He places his hand in mine and I squize it.
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Finally I am able to open my eyes. I see no one in my hospital room all of a sudden my mom runs into my room.
With tears running down her face. Allison explains everything that happened except for one thing that she said I should talk to Derek about.