Sink or Swim

December

Chapter song: Cowboy in LA- LANY

"Kenny do you miss him." Livi snuck up behind me yanking on my shirt. I gave her a curious look but she just pointed across the room. "Because I miss him," she sighed dramatically.

Standing there amongst the chaos was Cal. In a plaid button-down with a beanie hiding his nappy curls. He was so caught up in the conversation he was having with the boys I didn't even think he had noticed us looking at him.

Part of my heart ached in a way as I looked at him. I couldn't help but try to figure out why.

Maybe because there was still something there between us that we haven't quite figured out yet. We may have talked things out but we decided on being just friends which was going surprisingly well. But there was still some part of me that aches every time I looked at him.

I wasn't over him. I don't think I'd ever be.

Tish likes to tell me that as a teenager we feel all our emotions ten times the normal amount. I hoped that she was right about it. Because then I'd be able to move past it.

I know during Halloween he said he couldn't be just friends with me, but we decided that friends were better than nothing. After all, he still had to prove that he could be honest, and I had to get over it. It was just complicated.

"Yeah but Livi he's still here," I sighed. "It's Cal he's always here. Besides he takes you for ice cream every time you ask."

"Yeah but it's different now. You're still sad," she rolled her eyes. "Plus he's always here with Liam again. He doesn't hang out with us anymore."

I couldn't help but laugh at her. She was so dramatic. It was true though about him being with Liam all the time. We didn't really hang out any more of course. Which meant he didn't see Livi as much as he used to.

"I am not sad." I gave her a nudge trying to brush it off.

"Whatever. Lie all you want Kenny I see right through it," she squinted at me. It was hard to keep a straight face.

We were still friends though. All of us hung out. We had a better understanding of each other after the weekend that was supposed to be the cabin. But it didn't mean that things still didn't suck at times.

"I'm sure if you asked him he would come over Liv. You know you're still his favorite," I smiled at her brushing a stray hair from her face.

"Really," she squealed. Her eyes lit up at the thought.

"There are my girls," my dad sighed happily wrapping his arms around us.

We both called him out on having a total dad move but hugged him back anyways. I gave them both a tight squeeze enjoying the moment.

"Uh excuse me are we having a father-daughter moment without me," Riley scoffed.

"Get in here goof," my dad smiled at her as I pulled her in. I loved that she was put, honorary family member.

We all stayed together until Liam and the guys came to dog-pile on all of us. Somehow we all ended up in a pile on top of the couch. Liv was squealing in delight because Mason and Liam began to tickle her while our dad held her down.

Riley and I were squished together against Cal and Ty who were holding us by our waists trying to tickle us.

I think Tish had rushed over with the camera but I couldn't tell for sure since there was so much going on. After a lot of begging and promising the guys pizza one night, they finally got off of us.

"Oh my god, what does coach feed you," Riley grumbled adjusting her outfit. I tried to tame my curls which didn't take much work since I had cut my hair.