When push comes to shove
I forget how to love
And you pushed me over my point.
I forgot what it means to be kind
With all these thoughts in my clogged up mind
But I can't think any other way.
I want to change myself
But my emotions are broken,
like an old book on a shelf.
And I can't get out of my head.
You hurt me
But I hurt myself more
For you remind me of the person I am.
I fear loss
But loss is all I gain
When I spend my time with you
We were close.
Maybe too close.
That was what brought us to end.
I don't want to lose you.
But that looks inevitable.
And it's hard to say goodbye.
Once I find myself,
I'll come back.
But until then, we must part.
15/3/2020
