What She Forgot

Chapter Ten

this is the final seth and ariana backstory chapter! this is all in seth's pov! enjoy loves xx

SETH'S POV

PART FOUR OF FOUR

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"Y-you're breaking up with me?" 

My heart broke when I looked down at Ariana Brooks' face. My God, she was so beautiful. Her brown hair was wavy today, in it's usual choppy shoulder length haircut. Her cheeks were flushed pink, her pink lips pressed together. My heart broke even more when I caught sight of those gorgeous, big brown eyes of hers. They were shiny with tears. 

I was going to miss her so much. 

I forced myself not to cry with her. Get yourself together, Seth. Clearing my throat, I forced myself to roll my eyes and cross my arms. In a cocky tone, I snapped, "That's what I said, didn't I?"

For a split second, that normal fiery spirit returned to Ariana's brown eyes. Whatever flame that was there was doused by her tears. "I don't understand. I thought we were perfect!" 

I forced myself to roll my eyes again. It made it seem like I was annoyed and it was a way to force tears away. Yeah, that's right. Guys can cry too! "You know I get bored easily. It was a surprise that I lasted as long as I did with you. You were a nice distraction while it lasted. Turns out, I don't want a distraction from Sydney McNaran anymore."

"I was only a distraction from Sydney? Nothing was real for you, was it?" Ariana asked, her eyes filling with hurt.

"Obviously," I snapped. "If you could leave now, I'd really appreciate it. I'm already late to Sydney's." 

"Oh," She said quietly. Ariana cleared her throat and opened the car door. "Thank you." 

I stiffened. "For what?"

"For being such a nice boyfriend to me for these past six months. I really liked it," Ariana said quietly. 

"Yeah whatever," I said. I tried not to wince.

"Goodnight, Seth," Ariana said. 

As she shut the car door, I watched as Ariana wrapped her arms around herself. I drank in every last detail of her. The way her hair swished as she walked. The way she held her head high, even in a moment like that. Even the way her skinny jeans clung to her legs, how the ring I had given to her for our four month anniversary still sat on her right hand ring finger. How her hands moved to her arms, cold now without my jacket draped over her shoulders.

My God, I was going to miss her so much.

As she stepped inside her house, I let out a sob. I ran a hand through my dirty blonde hair and slammed my head against the wheel, sobs wracking my chest. I shut my eyes, ignoring the sensation of a tear trickling down my cheek. "Goodnight, Ariana. I love you," I whispered.

She was gone in two weeks. 

It was going to happen eventually. Last month, when she had gotten the acceptance letter to the Los Angeles School of the Performing Arts, I hardly got to see her at all. She was always packing, or signing immigration papers, and trying to sell her house. It was too soon that she was finished packing, signing the papers, and her house was sold. It just happened too soon.

Nearly the entire grade had gone to the airport to say goodbye to her. I wanted to be there, by her side, holding her hand. I wanted to be the last one she hugged goodbye. I wanted to kiss her one more time.

I wanted to keep being able to hold her in my arms. I wanted to feel her smile against my chest as I held her. I wanted to be able to hold her small hands in mine. I wanted to put my arm around her shoulder and have her put her legs over my lap and her head on my shoulder. I wanted to be able to cup her gorgeous face in my hands and kiss her lips. I wanted to tell her again and again and again, "I love you." 

Instead, here I was lying in bed beside Sydney McNaran, a girl I despised more than you could imagine. 

But we don't always get what we want, do we?

You don't know how much I wanted to do long distance with Ariana. I loved her so much it hurt. I wanted to be texting, calling, and on FaceTime every second she had. I didn't care about the time difference. If she was available, I'd be available. I would save up all my money to buy a plane ticket to see her all the time. I wanted nothing more than to keep being able to call Ariana Brooks mine. 

Breaking up with her was the hardest thing I ever had to do. It was the right decision. She would be in Los Angeles. It would only be a few weeks before the boys over there would realize how amazing she was. It would only be a few weeks before there were boys out there who deserved her more than me. She deserved to be with someone who was as talented as her. She deserved someone who could be there for her when she needed him, not across the Pacific Ocean. 

She deserved better than me. 

If I had broken up with her and told her that reason, she wouldn't have stopped trying to prove to me that she thought I deserved her. That would cause her more hurting than pretending she meant nothing to me. If she thought that my feelings for her weren't real, she'd just hate me. She wouldn't be hurt because of me. It would be better for her. 

No matter how much it hurt me, it was the right decision. 

Ariana Brooks was destined for something great, I knew this. She was going to do great things at the Los Angeles School of Performing Arts. She was going to wow everyone with her voice. The entire school would be falling over her beauty, her kind heart, and her sharp tongue. She was going to have boys, the best of them all, chasing her. She was going to be with someone who deserved her more than I did.

And me? 

Seth Hutchings was just a blip in her life.

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I'M CRYING GUYS. SOBBING. TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE. WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF. IT'S OKAY SETH. I'M WITH YOU BABY. YOU DESERVE THE WORLD.

sigh. that moment when mikaila literally falls in love with a character that only gets five chapters. sigh.

so basically, seth broke up with ariana so she could have a better future. he lied to her and told her that he never had feelings for her, that she was just a distraction. this now makes her question her own feelings and when someone has feelings for her. this is why she didn't realize that sam had feelings for her, and how she wasn't sure if she felt something for sam or not. 

okay but we must protect my baby seth at all costs. #iloveseth

i hope you guys enjoyed this backstory as much as i did :)

xoxo,

  mikailaxryan