Bittersweet and no goodbye!!!

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Chapter 10

Jayceon's P.O.V

I know I pissed nevaeh off put I was just playing look I came out the womb after javen and never really had a sibling to pick on and now that vaeh's here I now have that to bad she's overly sensitive due to the pregnancy..."vaeh com'er" I said as she got out the car laughing at something Jay said." Nope fuck you" she said instantly frowning and trying to walk off but not before I caught up to her."Come on lil bit this what we on now" I asked looking at her watery eyes damn man her hormones go from 0 to 100 real quick in my (drizzy voice)."jayceon I really Don't want to talk to you right now" she said looking everywhere but at me that shit hurt man to know I caused her pain." Look vaeh I'm sorry it was a joke it's just your the baby and your having a baby it's crazy" I said "so the fuck what that doesn't mean call me a cow every chance you get..." She cried pushing my chest as my girlfriend harmony came over." Babe just give her a min" she said pecking my lips before running after Nevaeh " I should kick your ass you know that right" my mom said as my dad punched me in my chest and said " yo punk ass better fix it" and walked off."Baby you know she's sensitive I mean I get that you were only playing but you never and I do mean NEVER call a pregnant woman big that's a grudge they'll never let go ask your uncle Omar ." My mom said again patting my back giving a slight smile and walking away. Bruh I swear it wasn't never that fucking serious I thought as I walked to find nevaeh because i noticed harmony and and jazlynn were heading into the building mean mugging the fuck out of me I just shook my head walking around to the back of the building seeing vaeh looking over the ledge.i approached and playful said "Don't jump" she looked at me and turned back to look at the water.

Ne(vaeh)'s P.O.V

I know some people would say I was over reacting  but truth is I dealt with verbal abuse all the way up until I was 18 and able to leave foster care yeah sure jayceon may not have known that but ole fucking well that shit hurts and on top of all of this jamir,munch,javen,jayceon,and daddy are all leaving tomorrow talking about some got damn BUSINESS TRIP hell to the no I don't don't want them to go I have no friends and all jazlynn and mommy wants to do is rub on my stomach and I don't even know jayceon's girlfriend harmony and she's even starting to work my fucking nerves uhgggggggggggggggggggI'd rather just go with daddy and the boys."don't jump" I heard jayceon say breaking my attention from my thoughts."Go away!" I said turning back to look at the water but my vision was being blurred by tears forming in my eyes."come on vaeh man don't make me beg because I know all of this is not just from what i said back at the hospital" he said standing beside me looking at the water also I stood there for min silently crying trying to figure out a way to tell him what was really wrong without sounding like a big ass crybaby but you know what fuck it I am a crybaby ."I dealt with verbal abuse all the way up until I was 18 and able to leave foster care I was called ugly,fat,bitches,whores,and just about any other name you could think of but before all of that I was raped twice by Javier so Im very insecure at self conscious about my appearance and my weight" I said looking everywhere but at my brother."vaeh I didn't know you could have just told me what was up the first time this happened but instead you kinda just shut down you slip back into the person you use to be you don't have to do that I'm not them the family is not them mother fuckers that use to hurt you and I promise you babygirl if I could find each and everyone of those sorry sons-of-bitches that ever hurt you or made you feel as if you weren't good enough I'd kill then and bring them back to life just so you could kill them again." he said now looking at me as I looked at him but trying not to look in his eyes."veah you gotta open up to us more hell let all the past hurt and anger out you can cry,scream,throw shit,I'll even let you punch me to get it all out just know that we love you and that we're for you and not against you" he said and I was full on sobbing now."i know it's just that it hurts so bad and I keep it inside to remind myself that i am strong and that I can handle just about anything but I can't,I can't handle everything and especially not on my own its hard and I wanna give up" I said looking down at my hands as I played with my nails that needed to be done." Hey hey hey look at me baby girl" he said lifting my head with his thumb and index finger."Just because your strong enough to handle pain doesn't mean you deserve it because you don't you are one the most strongest people I know and believe me when I say I don't know of a lot of females that would have been able to handle any of the shit that you've been through baby girl your different and that's a blessing so in other words you weren't put here to fit in but you were actually put here to stand out and your golden baby girl and you come and get your big bro if any one tries to tell you other wise cause I don't play this shit." He said pulling me into his embrace."Thanks jace I really really needed to hear that" I said still crying but not as hard as before..." No problem now can you clean your face and bring YA ass on so a nigga can eat and don't look at me like that either because judging by the way my lil nigga was sucking on his thumb in them pics he hungry as hell to so bring YA ass lil bit" he said making me laugh and push him away from me so that I could clean my face and go eat because he was right my baby was hungry and a bitch was starving."lets go" I said grabbing his hand pulling him back towards the front of the building to the entrance but not before asking " can I go with you,daddy,Mir,javen,and munch tomorrow because jazlynn and mommy are going to annoy me to death rubbing in my stomach and doing all that extra shit and I don't even know harmony where she come from anyway" I said looking at him with hope filled eyes as he laughed shaking his head and said " you know pops ain't going for nun and as far as harmony goes she's cool I just had to make sure this was real before I brought her around Yall now can we plz go in girl shit I'm hungry as hell" he said chuckling I promise y'all I wouldn't trade my big brother for anything in the world I love his crazy ass.
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