We found love in a hopeless place

chapter 11: evening shadows.

"Love is not butterflies in the stomach. It's that you’d give up everything and anything to be with that person."

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I never thought I would be alone on a saturday night. When everyone else is busy or have plans and I am doing nothing here, playing a staring game with my Macbook. Social networks seemed boring as you get older, wait I'm not old but I don't feel like updating my life online anymore like I used to.

I decided to check on my facebook and twitter to see if anything interesting might come up on my timeline, but I didn't bet on it. But when I did, I felt as if my conscience had told me "I told you so" when I saw Bre change her relationship status from "single" to "in a relationship with" of course, Kent. I just rolled my eyes, trying my hardest not to be cynical. After our fight two days ago, I felt almost alone because final exams are coming up and college as we all know it, is not a playground for teenagers. Everyone is like a predator here aiming to ace the exams or just try to pass them. So there's no one I can ask to hangout with.  

Someone came in, and it took a nanosecond for me to know that it was Marco  because I knew Bre won't come in here to apologize and she was all lovey dovey with her new boy so yeah, And I ran to the kitchen when I smell chinese food, my favorite!

"Wow, you're early" I giddily said while I sat on the stool, he smiled because he knew that these were my favorite.

He opened the first box and God, the aroma of beef wanton noodles and buchi made my stomach growl "I kinda felt bad leaving you alone here" he said. I grabbed mine immediately. "Easy there, there's enough for the both of us" he laughed.

We finished our noodles with a strange invisible aura that I was feeling, I took the last buchi and looked at him and his eyes were showing that there was something he was ought to tell me but he couldn't or he wouldn't.

I took the initiative to ask him if there was something wrong, maybe that's why he came home early "You look like you are wanting to ask me something Marco, spill" he just stared at his half-empty bowl of noodles.

I swear, if he's not gonna talk I will throw this ball of buchi on his face. And it will hurt. But I decided that I will give him time to clear his thoughts to make sure where to start if he was gonna ask me something, or maybe he just has a problem and I was being overly assuming that it was about me. Besides I'm his friend not his girlfriend so I don't have the right to push him to tell something he doesn't want to.

I threw out all the styro, and chopsticks into the kitchen garbage and washed my hands. I was gonna let Marco eat so after he finsih, I will clean his mess because it's my job after all, he bought the food. I sat comfortably on the sofa and searched for the remote to turn the television on. When I lift his philosophy book up, something fell and I pick it up. I turned the paper around, and to my horror it was a picture of me and Riley from the photobooth. The one that was missing. How could he possibly have it?

I went to the kitchen, I was slowly hyperventilating, pools of emotions are swirling. Too confused to think. I looked up to him who was sitting idly on the stool. When he saw what I was holding, his mouth dropped, he couldn't even utter a single word. I was at the edge of bursting into tears, not knowing if it was because he knew or because he didn't tell me that he knew.

Finally, he made a loud sigh and got nerve to respond back  "It's not how it seems Jesse" 

Tears were finally streaming and were not stopping "You knew?" I croaked. 

He came closer to try to touch my hand but I took a few steps back. I was feeling hurt and a bit of betrayal. What a great weekend for me, two of my bestfriends are slipping away from me. "Please Jesse" He pleaded. "Where did you get this?" I half-whispered half-weeped. "I-I don't know" he mumbled. "What? how could you not know?" I asked confused, he couldn't just possibly picked this up on the floor or the school hallways while at the charity ball.