My Exception// Jack Avery [2]

CHAPTER 37 [my exception]

Today is the day and I've never been more nervous. Its one simple question, but that one simple question can change our lives completely. I've never been more sure on a decision but then again, me and Jack don't have really have a good track record so I have no idea how things will pan out and I'm just hoping everything goes perfectly. I've been avoiding Jack all day, I told him I had a lot of work to do and I wont be able to see him until later which he was fine with because he also said he had a lot of stuff to do today which isn't normal for Jack but it was fine with me because I cant exactly have him with me whilst I'm getting everything together. Now, I have exactly one hour before I'm supposed to meet Jack and I've never been more nervous.

"You need to calm down" Molly laughs in my door way, "I'm scared okay, girls don't normally ask guys to be their boyfriends, its the other way around" I state as I look at myself in the mirror, "yeah well its you and Jack, you're not exactly normal" she says, "I guess not" I cant help but smile. "You know he'll say yes right?" Molly says, "I sure fucking hope he will, if not then I'm just a huge idiot" I laugh, "he loves you Grace, no doubt about that" she smiles at me, "I hope he does" I say. I have never been more scared in my life that to ask Jack to be my official boyfriend, knowing me I'd mess it up somehow.

Jack is the one person in my life that has made me feel like anything is possible. Even after everything we've been through my feelings for him are the only thing that I consider a constant in my life. When me and Jack finally started talking again, I hated him and I hated the thought of him but even after just spending very few hours with him he made me the happiest I had been in a long time. A lot of pressure was put on me after my dad died and Spencer moved to LA to spend time with our uncle. My mum wasn't completely okay and I had to do a lot of work around the house in order to get things done, I practically raised my own brother for 3 years of his life. After my dad died my mum was broken and she never recovered, neither did Spencer. Sure, it was hard but I had Jack and they didn't have anyone to help them through it.

The first day Jack and I spent any time together was the day he gave me the skateboard. The board symbolises so much more than just being a skateboard to me. The board symbolises my feelings for Jack because every single memory I have with this skateboard are ones I made when I was falling in love with Jack and the last memory I have with this board was when I finally told Jack that I loved him. I couldn't bring myself to throw it away after me and Jack ended things, even after three years I couldn't just abandon it because it felt like I was letting go of everything Jack and I had and even after trying to convince myself that I didn't feel anything for him, deep down I knew that wasn't true. Jack told me that no matter what happened, he's always be with me wherever I was and that is what the board meant to me.

These past few months have been the most complicated and amazing months of my life. I got Jack back and that's all that matter to me despite loosing friends in the process. I never thought I'd see Jack again, so seeing him and finding out that he had moved on broke me into a million pieces, but thing quickly started to look up after Jack came to my apartment the night I saw him again. It felt like there was some sort of hope and despite telling him that I hated him, I knew that it couldn't have been that easy to push him away.

My phone pings and I look down to see that I have a message from Jack,

Jack: hey, you don't doing whatever so I can see you? x

"Holy shit he texted me" I say to Molly as I look down at my phone, "its show time Grace, you ready?" she asks me, "I kind of have to be, don't I" I say to her, "Grace, you've wanted this for years okay and now its finally happening, you love him, he loves you, you're more ready than you think" Molly says which makes my nerves go down. "Thank you" I say to her, "make sure to text me after so I know how it went" she smiles at me, "I will" I say pulling her into a hug, "now, I have a date with Zach so enjoy" she winks at me before leaving my apartment. I take one last deep breath before texting Jack back and picking up my skateboard to leave my apartment and do the scariest thing I could ever think of.