WOSO Imagines

Doubts - Tierna Davidson

Y/n's pov
I just sat on my bed playing with the necklace T got me for our 6th anniversary. I had just arrived at camp along with Kelley and Christen from Utah. I was just waiting in my room for Mal who's my roommate for this camp, but I can't help but think about the box burning a hole in my sweatpants pocket. I don't know how long I've been sitting there before I see a hand being waved in front of my face, "You okay Y/n?". I just nod still not looking at Mal. I feel the bed dip beside me as I turn to see Mal sit beside me, "Cmon Y/n you know you can tell me anything". "I'm just worried" I sign. There is one thing you need to know about me.

I'm deaf

It's be a struggle at times seeing as not everyone knows sign language. But I learned to read lips and I also have my voice app. But it didn't stop me from being absolutely terrified when I was called up to the National Team. Luckily I was being called up with my twin Mal, so at least I knew someone. Thankfully everyone was great. When Mal and I came back to your second camp I was shocked to find out that the whole team learned sign language for me. And that's when I realised this team really is a family.

So after we graduated from high school, Mal and I signed with UCLA. When Mal dropped out I stayed to continue of in college. It was at a UCLA Vs Stanford match where I first met Tierna and surprisingly she already knew sigh language and we hit it off. Then when she got the call up to the national team we became even closer until we were forced together by the team. (Note to self, next time Kelley asks for help with something. Just say no). And now we have been together ever since.

Ever though she's in Chicago and I'm in Utah we still make it work. I can safely say she's the light of my light and would happily scream it from the rooftops if I could. But there's always doubts in mind. Everyday I question how I was able to end up with this beautiful amazing intelligent adorkable woman. Why would she want to stay with someone she can't even have a normal conversation with when she can find someone better and more deserving of her love?

"Worried about what? Cmon Y/n. We tell each other everything that's the good thing about having a twin" Mal assures. I sigh and run my hand through my hair and try to play with my fingers. I start typing on my phone using the text to speech because I didn't feel like sighing, "I've been thinking of asking tierna to marry me". Mal's eyes widen before she starts to seqeal and Juno around the room, "Omg Y/n. That's amazing! I can't believe it. This is so exciting". She rants but stops once she sees my face. "Why are you so upset then?". I start typing again, "What if she realises she deserves someone better? Someone normal". Mal glares hard at me, "Y/n you need to stop bring yourself down. You are one of the most incredible people I know and I know for a fact that tierna absolutely adores you just like you worship her. You do deserve her and you are normal".

I kinda of zoned out half way through she talking as I start to type again, "I'm not normal Mal! Do you know how frustrating it is when I have to rely on people translating for me for interviews. Or to even go to a restaurant? I can't even have a normal conversation with her. I can't have proper conversations with people. I'm the furthest from normal Mal". And with that I storm out of the room.

I find myself on the roof. I just needed to get away and breathe and thinking. Hence the roof. I knew I was going to be found soon, so it didn't surprise me when I hear the door open and shut behind me. I could tell by the smell of her perfume that it wasn't my twin though. "What to talk about what has Mal freaking out down stairs about you rushing out of your room?". I don't turn to her, I just continue to stare out onto the city. When she doesn't get a response, she gently takes my face in her hands and forces me to look at her.

The setting sun reflected off her hair giving it a glow almost like an angels halo while her eyes sparkled. No words were spoken as I just lean my forehead against hers still looking into her eyes which j would willing get lost in for the rest if my life if I could. She leans down slightly and captures my lips in a gentle but passionate kiss almost pouring all her love into this kiss. I happily kiss back, but all too soon it ends.

"Cmon tell me what's wrong?" She whispers. I sigh before I start to sigh, "I'm not normal. And you deserve someone normal. Someone who you can have conversations with. Someone who doesn't rely on people to translate for everyday stuff. You deserve someone so much better T". She rubs her thumbs over my cheeks, "Well there's your problem. Your saying that there is someone better than you. Which to me isn't possible. There is no one in this entire earth who I rather be with. You light up my whole day with just your smile. I don't care if you can't talk, it doesn't make me love you any less. I love you for your amazing quirks. Like how you shruch your nose when you disagree with something. Or when you slip your hand into mine when you know I feel uncomfortable. I love how funny and kind hearted you are. I love you Y/n Pugh and don't you ever forget that". I just smile at her before leaning up and pressing a kiss after her lips. I feel her smiles into the kiss before she pulls away, "Besides who else would listen to all my dorky science rants".

I walked back into my room where I see Mal, rose, sonnett, Lindsey and Kelley scattered around the room, "I need your help". I make eye contact with Mal as she started back, "I'm going to do it".

We were just after winning our game after Australia wining 3 - 1. Tierna was beside me as we looked around the stadium at the screaming fans. I turn and look at Mal and the others as they nod and slink off into the dressing room. Tierna and I make our way around the stadium sighing stuff and taking pictures. After a while I see Kelley and the others return and give me a thumbs up. I smile back at them. I slip my hand into tierna's and gently tug her in the direction of the dressing room. She follows me but gives me a questioning look, "What are you doing?". I just give her another smile and drag her into the dressing room. When I pull her she she gapes at the room. Around the room is pictures of us together from throughout the years. From the very first picture we got together her wearing her Stanford jersey with me in my UCLA one to a picture from yesterday where I was giving her a piggy back to dinner. "Y/n?". "Tierna when I'm with you. I don't feel like the deaf girl. Or the one who can't talk. I'm just Y/n. You bring out a better side of me. I'm grateful that I met you at that match that day. And as you can see from all these pictures around the room. We have had some great memories and I wouldn't change a thing. But I want to keep making new memories with you, but maybe with one small change". I slowly hey down on one knee and pull out the ring from my pocket, "Hopefully we can keep making new memories but with a different name on our backs. So Tierna Davidson will you marry me?". Tierna just rapidly nods her head as tears escapes from her eyes. Before pulling me into a kiss. We are interupted by cheers coming from the door where we see the team, but I just focus on Tierna. "I love you Y/n". "And I love you Red".